Something More, Something New

Messy messy MESSY!

2010-12-16T23:49:00.006+08:00

Life's been well like the title. Messy!
xD messy messy messy~!~!~!
Having Massive Headache that's turning into a high fever.
Woo!
and no better time for that to happen than right after exams right?!?!
damn~
I'm soo "Lucky"!
ROFL!
on another note. I AM LUCKY
:') During my exam week she's been soo supportive like completely!
tho i feel bad for talking to her less. :(
I really wanna score well in College sigh!
I hope i score well.
geez!
History of Art sucks!
Kenny Sucks!
his tips all wrong de. fck!
that aside~
it's the Holidays!
yay... happy holidays everyone.
heh.. I feel kinda dead honestly. maybe due to the sickness. I dunno
I finished my book!
Marked~ Awesome story~ :D
I like the sentence said by the Goddess Of Night/vampires.
"Darkness does not always equate to evil, just as light does not always bring good"
which is true~ sometimes people can easily shine the light of problems onto us~
when we're probably better off not knowing and be left in the dark.
Next semester I'll be starting REAL multimedia courses :D
yay!
means i gotta brush up on my video n photoshop skills.
and also read up on some random stuff. myths, games, stories, books, and what not.
So i'd have an active imagination for the coming semester.
Its not that I want to.. I just have nothing much left to do.
Alright!
Truth! :X I miss her like crazy~ but then, it doesnt hurt anymore.
o_o it's not that i dont love her. By God! I love her more than anything.
I just suddenly found this inner peace. rofl! and it's name be Trust~
and maybe a thing called Life. no idea how that relates.
but oh well!
I'm most probably gonna buy "The House Of Night Book 2; Betrayed" next month.
and then "book 3; Chosen" by the following semester. rofl!

yes I DO need a book for every semester i change subject~
thinking about next year. kinda scary. College is a whole new field o_o!
gawd! it rawks!
and and Next year playing with the touchscreen MAC!~ ehehehe~ gonna poke it until it breaks!
:X i mean uhh~ Design Until It Fries!?! ehehehehe :X i MEAN! create amazing wicked awesome freaking animation that's gonna make the lecturer speakless! (IN YOUR FACE KENNY LAU! )
*I hope he doesnt read blogs~~ :X*
wheeeeeeeeeee~
what's next?
Complete and utter CHAOS!
my life seems to not be able to function without it. and somehow I'm getting used to it.
or maybe it's lost its power when i grew up. huh?
oh well!
I wish i could say more. i wish i could do more~
but for the time being this is all i can do~
Ohhhhhh~ I love the book~~ It teaches a lot! :D
Nyx is the personification of Night~ which is of course The Lady Of Darkness, AKA Vampire Goddess. which is also known as; The Changing Woman ( ROFL! ) , Gaea (wow!), A'akuluujjusi (I dont even know how to pronounce that?!) Kuan Yin (completely wtf!) Grandmother Spider (i love spiders) and Dawn (this one i like! :D)
It's like "Queen Of The Damned" all over again! I'm kidding.
That movie actually kinda sucked.
Okay! so i'm being random.
I'm just soo bored.
I cant sleep liao.. zz..
Headache's killing me. I have no book left to read.
She didnt reply ; so maybe she's asleep d.
hmmm... ah well. going to take some meds then lie down.
(pfft! that sounds wayyyyy too oldddd for my age! but still! gotta take care eh? xD)

P.S!
I love you~~ ROFL! i know that's a stolen line. OOPPS!! It would be soo freakin cool if I could create a new language!~
then i can say something freakin complicated and...
what the heck am i talking about. zzz
great!!!! headache making me go nuts. sigh.

lame. i know i am.
anyway! THING IS
I just, wanna thank you for supporting me during my exam time. :) that means a whole lot to me. (i hope you read this before coming back!) and and I guess, I just really really thankful and feel blessed to have you in my life. so yeah :) no matter what ever I still love you. Genuinely! :)

BLUEKS! thats all i guess ;)
so yeah! as you can see~~~~~
hmmmmm~
I'm going great! despite this ''going to be sick soon'' period. ISH! and Period reminds me of history of art! hate hate hate!
maybe hate is too strong of a word...
hmmmm...
NEAH!!
HATE! HISTORY!
BOO!
:) so yay! I'm goona pass! wakaka!
siao liao siao liao.
paiseh paiseh.
wa ki kun liao.
bye bye da jia~
LOL!

Life's been

2010-12-08T01:51:00.004+08:00

Life's been.... like hell..
everything i do. seems... wrong?!
i dunno. i want her to be happy. but i keep doing the opposite somehow.
Oh God! tell me what to do???
to be honest i feel like suffocating myself with my blanket.
I kept praying and screaming.
but to no avail. All i heard from God was; "You still have a purpose."
That proves why i cant die... not yet anyway. but then..
life is getting sooo frustrating! especially with College!
The girl i truly deeply in love with. seems to be slipping out of my hand. and i dunno what i have to do to keep her with me.
exams coming up, and oh man, i wish i didnt have to sit for history of arts.
haiz.. I hope i can pass all my subjects this semester..
I made a promise to myself not to lack behind starting next sem. gonna format my com to only have photoshop and video-editing programs too. time to grow outta being a gamer.
heh... If anything; My wish from when I was 9; about wanting someone to be by my side. Has finally comes true. So Right now; my wish is for her to stay.
I'ma gonna take my driver's test next year too. and depending on my studies.
i might take up a part-time job too (most likely after june).
Nothing fancy of course. most likely end up working at the kopitiam.
which isnt that bad, and the pay isnt bad either.
up to rm750 for sitting around is definitely worth it!
It's odd, when i started being a christian. All i ever prayed for was peace in family. and a vision/future for myself...
Now that i have both. I'm willing to throw it all away for a wish.
lol! shows how freakin lovesick i am :x
I know it seems kinda pathetic. and man! i hate being pathetic. haiz. stilll.
she means hella lots to me.. Gotta find a way to make her happy again.
God~ can you give me a sign? pretty please? sigh!
my days are dying. they're like colorless films of the past.. I wanna be happy..
No.. truthfully, I am happy. I want her to be happy.
I've never met a person more harder to understand than her.
No idea why i find that attractive, but i do. :S
Right now, I'd do anything just to see her. and talk to her.
I feel like booking a plane to bintulu to find her right now.
But she's gonna hate me if i do so... haiz....
Why is everything soo confusing?

I feel jaded, empty, worried..
Heh, reminds me of a sermons; Worry Comes From The Demon!
=_=! shud be positive and joyous.
Positive; I know she loves me.. and i love her back.. I will be perfect to her soon.
But then i dunno how much longer she can hold.. sigh..
you know, truth is my hopes on my future lies with her..
Which makes me wonder on God's plan on my life..
how am i to fulfill my destiny if i'm stuck like this?
even if i was able to fulfill my destiny eventually;
i would want to be able to return to a home (not a house! a HOME) with her as my wife.
heh.. dreams...

Destiny.
Fate.
Faith.
Hope.
Dream.
Wish.
Love.
are the things i live for...
and what gets me going all the time. Achieving every goal i make for myself.
Nothing Is Impossible.
I Believe in you! ;D
I just Hope. Things get better soon..
((color studies says; red and yellow attracts attention.))
I guess, sometimes over planning does ruin life. that's why i'm not planning into details.
ups and downs is what makes our life go round i guess.

but then; time's like this i feel like screaming;
WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME?
but knowing it all.
for myself; well, I want to have a good future
(cos my past isnt all that great, ehehe, yeahhh. BUT! Life is fair. so bad past = good future)
for God; to live my life and achieve what He wants me to (no shit! as if everyone dunno that?)
for HER; just for me to just be a good bf (good enuf to be a husband type)
[Affection, Conversation, Honesty, Financial Support and Commitment]
so affection and honesty is what i'm good at..
Conversation can use a little work. Financial support; working on it.
Commitment is kinda early still.. but still i'm willing to commit myself to her.
I know each one of those have their own category...
I'm trying my best to meet her every need.
Even though I suck at it ;X opps~ hehe

Alright first gotta focus my exam. then Her. then church.
how am i suppose to do this..
------------------------------------------

Lord God...
You are...
"Jehovah-Rohi" Grant me guidance to know what i must do.
"Jehovah-Rapha" mend my broken-heart and hers too.
"Jehovah-Jireh" Provide me with the tools to fix all that is broken.
"Jehovah-Shalom" Bring peace to these shaking grounds of my life.
"Yahweh" I am a sinner and You are my only way to Salvation... :(
El-Olam; Lord Everlasting.. Watch over me as i do my deeds as your creation.
Elohim, bless me with the strength and might you hold oh lord.
I pray for your presence in me. To show me what i must do.
I'm lost and I just need a way out. My Savior, My Lord.
Watch over me...... Amen..

what? It wouldnt kill to have a little~~
♥ faith ♥ hope ♥ love ♥ dream ♥ wish ♥ plans

I guess things happen for a reason. i just hope they arent for bad reasons.

war

2010-10-28T21:50:00.002+08:00

Guess what?!
guess waht waht?!!!
I dont know either.
Life's been soooo super duper dull!
and sucky!
T.T
dont wanna comment much.
and there isnt much to write either. T.T
I wanna go out, i wanna have fun.
gahhhh!!
why is my life getting boring?! T.T
eeee~
honestly. i'm bored. sigh!
:( and things arent going as good as i want them too.

sigh! guess we cant always get waht we want T.T

oh well. that's it. TADAH! short post.
it's to let you knw I'm still alive and kicking!

希望

2010-10-25T09:57:00.004+08:00

是我错我没想到.
我在2007年有一位好朋友。我和她呢。今年不像朋友了。
以前，像好弟姐，而行在呢，像莫伸人一样。

为什么会着样呢?

她和我说；
Bro, You are very selfish, you want everyone for yourself. You dont own people; we are best friends, but that doesnt mean i have to be here for you 24/7. I'm not being selfish; its that i have my own life too.

虽让，她说的没有那么夸张。但是那是她的意识。

也对。
从小，六岁时；我有了我第一个希望。那就是要有一位好友陪我过日子。
但是；到我十岁时；我二哥去世了。我小时候的好友也暗箭我了。
我真的好难过。过后；家挺发生了好多问题。有了我第一位女友，但我把她视为理所当然。
我真没用。我很自私。我很想改变。

我生命的每一个人都不会诊镇和我一起很久的。
但是；在2008 年，我改变了。
在2009年遭到了我生命最爱的人。
让侯；过了好多好日子。。。
但是；我冲了 PLKN 我不动这么办好。
我去了。回来后；有变回我以前的样子。伤害了我最爱的人的心。
我想从新开始。但那时不可能的。
我有可能浪费了我唯一的机会有个真心爱我的人陪我过生活。
虽然我还没放弃，我很害怕。。。
我不能没有她。我很难过，不懂该这么表达她对我的重要性。
我真的没想到她是那么真实的爱我。。。
我真的好笨；好傻；好自私。对不起。
我真的每想到我的希望会有成救的。
我行在真是很害怕。。。会不会太迟了。。。
我很讨厌我自己，对不起；是我错了
我会感强起来的, 我真的好需要你。。。 T.T
我知你有你的生命；我知你有的自己的朋友。
我知我很自私。我只不过很还怕而已。。。
我很怕没有了你。。。
很难董吗。。。
我不想被受伤害了，我不想被抛弃了。。。
我做的一切有好多错误的，我在造着方法改变自己。
我真的不想伤害你了。。。
我真的什么都不懂；我只是希望你会跟我讲而已。。
我真的不懂。。。对不起。。。

看来；我小时的希望完成了，我现在的希望是想好你永永远远的不率开我。
我真的很需要你, 没有了你我是真的活不下去的。
我很软弱，我想要变的更强。只希望你会等我而已。
我真的会在成为那位你爱的人的。
i just need time to find him again. to find myself again.

in words

2010-10-25T09:02:00.002+08:00

I'm selfish. and I think too much.
those are my weaknesses.
Selfish Love! -Miyavi :X
anyway..
erm..
theres alot i wanna say; but i dont know how to say them..
I lied to her, and i left her. once.
it was due to overbearing thoughts and affects from a bunch of people around me.
some i barely even know. I felt unimportant; i felt used; i felt a lot of feelings i never felt from the relationship before. Doubts. I hated it soo badly. I was too weak. i hurted her.
:( i regret. I hate each and everyone of you who caused me to do her such pain.
and i realized why it hurted when i see her (erica); cos she's my first. I trusted her whole heartedly 100%; but she dumped me for another guy; that scar remained in me until i met her again on her birthday last month.
and it made me realized how much i hurted my current girlfriend the same way.
Its correct that i care about my past, but i only care about it cos i dont want my future to be the same.
Everyone have their own unique way of thinking; i have mine. Believe me or not; I love you.
I never intended to be weak..
to be honest; right now. i think PLKN is what led to this :(
I was alone for soo long; worse; i was stuck in a camp where you need to be selfish to survive.
The affects of spending 3 months there = not good at all.
I came back; with all the stupid PLKN affects. and destroyed my own life.
Destroyed my own relationship. Destroyed most of my friendships.
Maybe they were right; maybe PLKN is haunted. not by ghost; but by demons of doubts and fraud.
I wanna change back, i wanna go back to my strength last year.
i wanna be the person she fell in love with again.
I wanna be better again.
I wanna be a vampire again.
Altho i cant always get what i want :(
I pray for it!
I'm hoping, waiting, wishing to be strong again.
i dont wanna make any more mistakes, i dont wanna have any more doubts.
so! leave me demons! i dont care if i feel empty; i dont care if i feel nothing.
I dont care if it hurts, i dont care about anything anymore!
I just wanna be with her. I just wanna be with her.
I just wanna be with her. I just wanna be with you.
Trying really hard not to get affected by my surroundings. :(
trying really hard to focus on God, her and schoolwork.
why cant i focus well D:
to be honest, i need her most when i'm like this :(
she always make me smile, make me stronger.
I regret soo many things.
I wanna change.
I wanna regain her love and trust. :(
i wanna be hers again.
I'd give anything for another chance.
sigh..
I'm scared
I'm scared of losing her again.
D: what is wrong with me!?!
damn... 8 days left. :(
what should i do?

hmm dead blog

2010-10-14T19:49:00.007+08:00

hmmmmmm~ dead blog! xD
Hello bloggie! long time no post :X
anyway life's been hectic :S
lotsa ups and downs. ouchies.
Been painting and drawing a lot lately
(dying from painting! it's sooo frustrating to wait for paint to dry X____X! )
anyway~
doing my english and history assignment later. T.T
before that :)
wanna make a longggggg post on ue! xD

In september!
went out with Adeline o___o! yeah 1on1. felt awkward!!! but it was nice to see her again :D
been soo long since me n her hanged out; we went to watch the expendables. then after went back to her school (st.jo) to wait for her dad to pick her up; talked about religion, church and relationship. rofl! its like the in topic for me n her :S cos if not she'd be blabbing all about Biology (wtf! BIO! LOL! :X nerdy! )

anyway~ then nearly the end of september went to Erica's birthday party.
I duno why; but see her affected my mood. it hurted. maybe its due to what happened to her with the person she dumped me for, ermm either way; i'm happy she found someone better for herself. through out that night i was hoping dear dear was there with me. but she wasnt. and due to her cacat phone i couldnt sms with her either. Adeline was too busy with her own friends too (who were excluded by Erica too) so yeahh... there were like 2 groups of people there. so everyone felt awkward.

I got home, got emo. I din know what to do. I was a complete mess. :S and then i hurt her last week... one of the biggest thing i'll ever regret is that night.. sigh! We talked the next day and we patched up abit. I needed help... so i went to church and screamed my lungs out 2 days straight :D~ and during one of those day i forgot which; i chatted with erica online about me, and she found me stupid =___=! and she made me realized i was, and she also told me that she never actually considered me n her ever together due to the fact that during that time i was having my family problems, and i was actually rejecting her (and i was) and she just got soo fed up and found herself someone else (not knowing that that person would've caused her soo much more damage) but the point was that to her all i was and ever will be is a friend. and it kinda made me feel better that i wanted to be better for dear dear... I din wanna lose pric just because i'm selfish or cos i'm afraid of losing her or just cos I rejected her in my life in some way.

heh... I wanted to change.. i still do... so anyway!

monday came! me went out with dearest!!! and i felt completely renewed! :D
I really love the way she looked! ♥_♥ white blouse and jeans(with blue thread) then again! she looks great in everything xDDD~
ermm ermmm!! met her at the cyber first at around 8:30, she needed some help with her video (tho i din help much T.T)
and then we went for lunch at the shops at green road at around 10:30 :)
then we went to Star to watch The Hole. cool movie,
before it started tho, we went to eat ice-cream and to St.Mae.
to greet all of dearest's friends :))
I loveeee to see her soooo happy :'D~
anyway~
then after that we went back to Star to watch the movie.
bought drinks (pepsi and 7up)
lol dear dear actually ordered pepsi twist, but it was out :S
anyway went into the hall... and watched the movie.... :)
halfway she did something.... something i wanted for soo longgg~ and something that really boosted my confindence.. I loved it... i missed it... it was comforting.. I almost cried. :'| it was just too sweet!
i wanted to do more for her right at that time; but there was nothing i could do. i was all out of ideas. :S i din know how to express myself for once. I just really felt loved and i wanna show her love back :'| but i didnt know how...
well... heh.. ahem~ we went back to CC after that.
Bullied her while she was gaming~ ROFL!
she's soo cute... :|
ermm ermmm~
then then went to her tuition.. she rebinded her book. and went up to tuition.
Oh yeah! she drew me something super duper sweet last time! I relooked at it when i got home.
i cried :'| and sms with her. rested. A decent sleep for once! :'D I woke up lovesick.
(actually posting this is making me lovesick!)
ermm ermmm then the days that came were amazing. :)
tho tuesday she got annoyed by someone :(
and i wanted to cheer her up but i failed... then yesterday came. she was feeling better abit.
but at the end of the day her mood grew worse..
I was affected..
:( i didnt know what to do.. i felt soo useless...
I tried.. but i failed... idk why i keep failing her..
sigh! and today... I rather not post about it..
I just hope things get better tomorrow.
I hope this is enough...
I hope i am enough..
I have nothing to hide...
I have nothing to give..
Nor anything to gain from lying..
The truth of the matter is...
I love her and i am vulnerable to her. Fragile to any pain she may inflict on me.
Even if i was independent, i wanna be with her and i still wanna share my entire life with her.
I just want her to be happy again...
sigh!
blueks! I feel soo useless again :'(
I wanna do soooo much more... why am i back here again.
i really thought everything was gone already...
I was doing my best... what triggered her... i wonder..
and how can i help her...

I cant take it! going off to do my assignment and pray my heart out..
I hope she feel better.

Sorry for neglecting you bloggie. :) ue always understand the best~
*hugs monitor* ROFL!

she isnt replying me.. :'( that affects too! X_X
and i just realized!

most of my friends are such ermm ermmm i dunno the term! xD and i love them soo muchies! rofl! xD those people u see with polkadoted dresses and colorful heels! o__o! uhmm. with faded color pics with words as their display pics. people who listen to ballet songs sung by colbie caillet, Sara Bareilles, all those!

excluding my nicer friends who are more religious and emotional who listens to christian rock, praise and worship and all that.
rofl! and then theres my more closer friends who listen to jrock, jpop, kpop, cpop, kdance... asians! rofl! tho most of them arent from kuching T_T

but still! there's only one who is truly sweet, always there and just really amazing. emotional but amazing :'D whom i super duper love! her name is! Pricilla~ hehe Love you lots dear!!! you're soo unique! and i really truly wanna spend my whole life with u...
sorry for the way i am, i wanna be better. i wanna be yours. i love you...

quite long

2010-08-04T23:14:00.003+08:00

So it's been quite long since i last posted
alot had happened.
I feel stronger than before.
still need some work done. but still I'm less emo.
tho I still feel weak when i'm apart from her. :(
I'm still trying my best to be stronger for her.
that aside.
went out with her on monday :D~
tat was our 9th month anniversary!! :))~
really really really really was an amazing day
we watched Salt. and pretty much spent our time talking and joking around.
simple yet sweet, nothing can compare :)
I really really love wasting time with her.
then then yesterday got to spend more time with her!
we went to st.mae so she could get high with her friends rofl!
:) they were all soo happy to see her..
she was soo happy to see them.. I felt happy too seeing her smile.
x__x tho i dont know.
I guess I wish that i could've spend more alone time with her.
but then today i felt tat i was being selfish yesterday.
there are a few things i wish i could take back. but since i cant. I hope i will do better next time.
that aside. It was still really really amazing to see her soo happy.
I wish i could make her smile and laugh like that everyday .__.!

so yeah! overall our dates had been going great.
our own lives has had our own share of problems.
:') I'm gone through all of mine. and now waiting for my semester to start.
Fresh New Class, Fresh New Mates, Fresh New Friendships To Create.
cant wait.
tho i CAN wait if i get to spend more time with my beloved xD
:x lately she's been really stressing about her schoolwork. which is kinda sad.
I really dont know how to help her much. Cos God knows I suck with schoolwork.
still I will do my best to relief her stress.
I really love her more than anything.
today, my emotions got a better hold of me..
and i wish it hadnt. :\ at least it wasnt as serious as i thought.
that aside i think it was due to lack of sick or this stupid headache i'm getting.
Or maybe it's just the holiday moodswings again... personally I hate Holidays..
I always get soo isolated and lonely at home that my mood keep changing..
one second i can cry for no reason, scream my lungs out cos i feel frustrated which turn into scream of Joy.. and well pretty much go crazy with boredom and lonesomeness. dull-ness to the extreme!
sigh~ but still OVERALL! I love her lots! :) personally i wish she could give me more work to do. o___o! cos i seriously want to do more for her. and i need to get my mind on something before i keep thinking.

Hanging with the group tomorrow. Hopefully that would maintain my emotions again.
gahh.. i hate getting sick... going off to bed.
Peace Out Peeps :)~

P/S
Flyleaf Rules! and Lacey the lead singer. Just plain ROCKZ~

bye bye bye to me

2010-07-27T18:42:00.004+08:00

Bye Bye Bye :)
A LOT had been happening in my life
alot of changes. a new surrounding.. SEGI COLLEGE
new friends, new companions, new trust, new supporters.
A new environment...
A lot have changed.
some good some bad, some horrible some extremely amazing.
Adrenaline rush, Pain, Tears, Happiness, Care, Love... Everything
I dunno how to express the thing's I've faced this month
I started college. First Subject Started And Ended today.
New Friends. Old Friends.
Church, College, Lovelife, Friends..
I dont know how to blog them all..

But One Thing's For Sure
No Matter How Much Things Changes..
My Love For Her Still Remains The Same
I admit.. I DID had doubts for awhile But my feelings just pulled me back to her.
I am back in her loving embrace and I'm not gonna leave.
I will be better at this

Bye Bye Bye To The Way I Was, Bye Bye Bye To The Way I'm Not Good.
Bye Bye Bye To The Imperfectness. Bye Bye Bye To The Weak Old Me.
I'm Made Anew.
Stronger, Better, Faster, Loving, Caring, Supportive, Faithful... and everything else.
PERFECTION
and Finally~ DEAR!
~~!~~I LOVE YOU~~!~~

Everything In The Past I've Lost. PLKN, High School, Primary School, Old Friends, Family..
But No Matter.
AS LONG AS I HAVE GOD, HER AND MY OWN STRONG WILL.
:) NOTHING WILL EVER COME AGAINST ME.
Took Me Awhile To Finally Moved On ...
But I Finally Realized What Is Truly Important To Me.
Truly Truly Important...
I'm Doing My Best And Having Fun Doing It!
LIFE IS ABOUT MAKING CHOICES, MAKING CHANGES AND TAKING CHANCES
Chances, Choices, Changes.
I'll take every chance I get to make the perfect choice. If it isnt good enough I'll change to something better and await another chance.
I WONT GIVE UP. NEVER GIVING UP

~ BYE BYE BYE TO THE OLD ME ~

AND SURE AS ANYTHING I'M LOVESICK! xDDDD~
:DDDD
PUI ENN PRICILLA!
I LOVE YOU
I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU!

lately

2010-07-02T12:29:00.002+08:00

well, it's been a.. very roller coaster 2 week.
first off
previous monday, met dearest at chong lin and walk walk with her around green road and to saberkas. etc. etc. nothing much really really. That was the day when she first time met her friend from SMKSM de. rofl whom she thought looks beautiful :S haha, to me she's just slightly above average la. xD

tuesday!
went to the spring with dearest. didnt do much there tho. Just spent time together sitting and talking mainly... and that was kinda amazing already. Opening up to one another and all that :))~

Saturday went to church and uhh that's it for last week.. :X all the other days were normal with nothing much happening..

THIS WEEK!
Monday, had a great meeting with dearest on monday :)) really really great.
wouldnt trade that one hour for anything! gawd i love her soo much!
:x
and thennn~ tuesday!
dated her! :DDD~ hehe~ great date too! :D
she chia me mostly.. eikk, horrible! =.= but she wanted to~
ermmm... that aside nothing much really :) I just really really love spending time with her.
even if it means we dont do anything at all... its great to spend time with her..

the rest of the week from wednesday till today..
ermmmm a megamix of emotions.
up and down emotions from both sides due to happenings....
It doesnt matter much tho..when we meet again. everything will be calm again...
when all these problems blow pass everything will be ok again..

that aside!
I'm starting college next week!!
Creative Multimedia! xDDD~
I cant wait! +___+!! i mean yeah totally! I cant wait :DD~
*EXCITED*
but it means that i wouldnt be able to spend as much time with my GF.. T.T
I pray that she'll be fine.. (feels bad)
but still i cant do much.. i still gotta study :S

thats it.. :S peace out!

open minded

2010-06-20T21:16:00.003+08:00

This blog post is titled: In truth

I'm still coughing. and all tat.. bluek

:) anyway
Today woke around 7:10.
brushed my teeth, bathed, ate. and waiting for ying and her bf to come fetch me to go watch pric's competition :)
so yeah.. reached there too early. saw pric's mum, talk to her awhile. we were there around 8:20
n the couple havent ate yet.
so we went to OpenA to eat. tho only her bf ate. rofl.
anyway then went back to st.jo.
and went to the hall. sat there awhile. dear came to talk to me.
even tho when i ask her if she was ready
her response was a no and shook her head. But somehow i knew she was gonna do great xD
so yeah!
i had total faith in her! :) then then. First round started she had a slow start but an aggressive ending. scoring her points to the semi final. then after tat round she went n drag me to sit at the green road student side rofl~
Ying asked if i was ok. so yeah then she went off to paktoh with her bf xD~
mehh couldnt make them stay. it'd had been mean.
oh btw.
YING MY SUPER BLURFRIEND THANKIUS~! :DDD~
ahem~
uhh yeah!
actually honestly Tkd may not be my fav sport or KK activity.
But it's hers so I went there to support her the best i can :)~
and had a good time with her watching her fight etc. etc.
after her first Gold. which was Great! xD
I ask if her leg was ok. it was actually getting worse~ but she continued.
then 2nd category she went and fight and wounded her leg even more! :(
then then her finals for tat was horrible.. :X i actually felt her pain :((
so yeah.. sigh! but she fought till the end. ♥ ♥ ♥
and scored herself a Silver medal xD~ which was really really awesome d~
I guess it's cos it's in her blood to always fight on~ :))~
so Yeah! she did an amazing job xD~ love her lots for being such a great fighter~
and being such a great student and active member.
it's people like Her tat rises a school's prestige :)~
so I have high hopes for her in the future bout everything :D~
and her last match was simpler. tho she was against her friend at the end.
which was a big distraction for her. :) but they both did great. rofl!
tearing each other's eyes out (literally) o___O! neway!
she got a Gold in that too!
& well despite the pain and bruises.
could tell she was happy. rofl.
so i'm glad. I wish i could've done more for her tho.
sigh! she got soo injured! :((~
But still the time i got to spend with her was nice.
and I knew she needed me there at some point. :)
so yeah. Huggies!
I love you dear. forever supporting u in everything u do.
:) hehe~ love love love love love you!
and i'm mega proud of you ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

oh after that, got home. and facebooked and chatted with dearest awhile.
then we both went to rest. long day :)~
now she's packing her back getting ready for her school tomorrow.
and I just love her more n more :))~

know what

2010-06-16T21:33:00.003+08:00

I BELIEVE, I TRUST, I KNOW, AND I LOVE
:)
YEAH!
I BELIEVE IN WHAT GOD TOLD ME
I TRUST THAT HE WILL PROTECT HER JUST AS HE TOLD ME WHEN I WAS PRAYING ABOUT HER IN CAMP.
ALTHO SOME SHIT DID HAPPEN, IT DOESNT MATTER
COS
THE PASTOR SAID;
EVERYTHING IN YOUR RELATIONSHIP IS HAPPENING AS IT SHOULD, DO NOT WORRY. GOD WILL GUIDE AND HEAL.
AND HE ALSO SAID THAT I HAVE A POWERFUL SPIRIT ARISING FROM ME, FROM MY STOMACH AND IN MY HEART.
SO I HAVE NO FEAR OF WHAT WILL HAPPEN
COS I KNOW THAT MY GOD IS A LOVING GOD.
AND HIS GRACE IS SUFFICIENT FOR ME
AND WHAT I ASK HE WILL GIVE
AND I ASK FOR HER TO BE SAFE AND FOR HER TO BE MINE
AND IT WILL BE GIVEN TO ME
I TRUST IN HER TO STILL HAVE THE SAME FEELINGS SHE HAD FOR ME
I LOVE HER FOR ALL THAT SHE IS, GOOD OR BAD
EVEN NOW I LOVE HER MORE THAN ANYTHING!
ALL IS GOOD, ALL IS FINE
GOD IS GREAT, I AM GREAT
NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE
I TRUST, I HOPE, I HAVE FAITH, THIS PROBLEM WILL BE OVERCOMED
IN THE NAME OF JESUS CHRIST, DISMISS THIS DEMON FROM THIS RELATIONSHIP
AND IN DOING SO, HEAL THE DAMAGE IT HAS DONE.
HEAL THIS RELATIONSHIP OH LORD. HEAL US.
STRENGTHEN US. FORGIVE US. BE WITH US. BE WITH HER.

:DDDD

hahas feeling lot better.
Sharing 3 sweet messages that helped me thru my relationship problems while i was in camp..

MELISSA'S MESSAGE;
1- If you love her, why not right? being in a relationship is always like that, sacrifice alot. Give and TAKE alot too! But sometimes you need to be selfish also ;D

2- YOU HAVE A STRONG SPIRIT. Just keep on going and dont give up. I'm sure things will be settled soon.

ADEL'S MESSAGE:
1- You will be blessed and rewarded in His ways and His time. All i know is that there is a purpose things like this happens. And He has his ways to show you what he wants you to do in your life. You can read psalms 13 BUT remember this, Jeremiah 29:11..

PSALMS 13 ...
How long, O LORD ? Will you forget me forever?
How long will you hide your face from me?
How long must I wrestle with my thoughts
and every day have sorrow in my heart?
How long will my enemy triumph over me?
Look on me and answer, O LORD my God.
Give light to my eyes, or I will sleep in death;
my enemy will say, "I have overcome him,"
and my foes will rejoice when I fall.
But I trust in your unfailing love;
my heart rejoices in your salvation.
I will sing to the LORD,
for he has been good to me.

Jeremiah 29:11...

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

Then i trust in the Lord to plan my future.. but i still pray that it is with her..

:D

2010-06-16T11:47:00.004+08:00

YOU KNOW WHAT!
I DONT CARE :D If i WAS borned to be unloved or uncared for thats fine :)
because LOVING YOU makes me happy
~I love to love you~ :D

I dont care if you love me back or not.
I just wanna love you because i love you
and I will do whatever it takes to prove that :DDD~
Hehe~ Muackz Love You Dear~
More and more each day :))~
And I'll be Fine :D perfect :)
I wont do anything that'd hurt you
or myself
IPromise You..
I love you. you mean everything to me... xoxo~
just dont let go of me. I really wanna be in your life :))~
Happy 226th Anniversary

:)

2010-06-15T16:32:00.001+08:00

I Love You, For That I Respect Your Every Decision, Every Action And Every Wish.
I'd Always Serve You Like A Princess And I'll Always Be Yours.
That's How Deep I Love You.
And I'll Always Take Care Of You.
And Always Be There For You When You Need Me To.
I Love You. Lots. I Trust You Lots. I Need You Badly.
And I still Wish To Have A Future With You...
Love You Pui Enn Pricilla.
Always..

Anniversary Day: 225~

Letter

2010-06-15T15:27:00.002+08:00

The Letter That Wasnt Given:

♥Dear Wife :)

~♥~Honestly, this is the hardest relationship i've ever been on and one that has cause me more pain than any friendship and relationship ever did. But IT'S STILL THE BEST RELATIONSHIP EVER, COS I HAVE IT WITH YOU~♥~

& I guess what i mean is, I love you above all else,
Despite what happens, what problems we face,
How hard it all gets, or how painful it maybe.

I WILL ALWAYS LOVE AND CARE FOR YOU THE SAME!
& I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU MORE N MORE EACH DAY!
My love for you will never fade~ & I'll be FOREVER YOURS!
♥♥♥~我爱你, 永远是你!~♥♥♥
I DONT CARE WHAT HAPPENS I'M STAYING WITH YOU!
Even if you broke me into a million pieces, I'd still love you as the broken man I am~♥

♥♥♥~FIX ME~♥♥♥
If you want~ I'd Love And Trust You Either Way~
TRUE LOVE MEANS LOVING EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU, AND I DO.
BUT ALL I WANT IS TO BE WITH YOU. You Mean Alot To Me. ♥~XOXO~♥
& Happiness Is What I Really Wish To Give You.

♥♥♥~MARRY ME~♥♥♥
Whenever you're ready. I wont mind the wait.
As long as you keep me as yours forever before and after it :)~
I Just really really wanna be with you~♥♥♥

♥♥♥~THANK YOU~♥♥♥
For All You've Done And Given~
I Really Appreciate Everything You Do BUT YOU SHOULD NEVER STRESS YOURSELF!
You Are My Everything!
I Am Nothing Without You.

♥♥♥~PLEASE STAY~♥♥♥
I'm Not The Best Boyfriend Or Husband, But I'm Trying..
So No Matter What Dont Leave Me. I Will Be Better, I Promise You.
N I Need You Deeply, I Love You Truly. XOXO~
& I Hope This Gift Bring Warmth To Your Heart & Give You Life :)~

I LOVE YOU LOTS~
我爱你!

thing is

2010-06-15T14:33:00.006+08:00

This is a broken post......

I'm tired of losing people i love...
I dont wanna lose her.. i cant let go..
I wont let go..
I will do whatever it takes, i will not lose her!
I LOVE HER! & I'M SORRY... :(

...
I've been crying the entire day..
and still am... till i'm shivering..
from the pain.. the agony..
the imagination of the hospital room...
the words the doctor might say..?
the sadness of her parents..?
the sadness of my heart...
its all too familiar..
Ryan..
:( my bro... argh...
why does my life have to be like this..
I've done soo much good..
I've sacrificed soo much..
why cant I just have this one miracle to take place..
to have a future with her..
to have a perfect family with her..
to be with her forever..
this one wish...
I've wish since i was 9years old..
how can I still not have it now..
have i not suffered enough..
have i not given enough..
why must you take her away now too..
You're suppose to protect her..
You promised me... In your spirit you promised me..
God.. You Gave me that promise..
Why are you doing this to us..? argh...
My Faith is very very extremely low
s weak..
and i'm afraid...
I'm afraid..... T.T ahhhhhhhh~...
why why why why why why why why why WHY!?!~
...
I cant even say goodbye to her without feeling sad.. I miss her everyday even when we'll see each other after a few hours or a couple of days...
how can i make it thru life if i dont have her...
God.. please... protect.. her... please.... please.....please.e.... i'm desperate....

Honestly

2010-06-15T11:55:00.002+08:00

"Honestly" its what tis blog post title is :)~
heh~
kinda ironic~
anyway~
I dont know why God made me the way i am..
I dont know why God threats me the way he does either.
But I want to change, so God can you help me? :)
For everything I hope for, i wish for, i want to change for it..
I want to change for her, my family, my friends, my church.
I want to be made stronger.
I want to have no fears.
I want to have no regrets.
Give me strength O Lord, for the days to come.
For A Dark Day Is Drawing Near
I've prayed and I've teared, I've laughed and I've Cried.
I've imagine and envisioned. I've planned and I've given.
and all i ask now, is for the dark day to be made bright
for the ending is covered in shadow.
and i wish for your company.
I need you to be with me so i can be with her.
Oh Lord, please dont take her away from me.

:( so yeah~
I wanna be stronger, i wanna be able to protect her.
I wanna be better, i wanna be something more!
I love you dear, megalots.
and I hope to really have a family with you soon~
huggies, I love you~
dont give up yet, cos i havent given up on you..
not even death will part us. you said tat. but its not time yet.
dont think it is.
you can trust me. I will be there for you.
I will always be there for you.
I love you dearest. lots.

over-reacting

2010-06-14T18:45:00.003+08:00

ok so... before i went to bed i was planning to make an emo post..
but well, messaging with dearest made me feel better
i guess i was over-reacting.
she really is an amazing girlfriend.
and this post is going out to her~
:) I just really wanna say this out from the bottom of my heart~
that I love my dearest Girlfriend Pricilla~
for everything she does,
big and small (like forcing me not to pay and paying during dates =.=!! ) ,
altho sometimes it's annoying
(like not letting me help her carry her bag, even when her shoulders are tired! .____.!)
and then there are those stuff she does that are truly magical.
I cant really talk about those here.
cos It's too many to say out :) she's just really sweet
today i am was weak emotionally
altho me n dearest had a good outing~
I was thinking too much~
:( so my bad.
but dear didnt mind and i'm just really thankful
and the thing is.. I'm not a bad boyfriend. she's just a great girlfriend..
She accepts me alot more than how i accept her..
and i just really hope she can forgive me for tat
I guess I'm blind :) but i do love her lots for who she is.
sometimes it's just my selfishness that gets in the way~
I love my dearest for the way she understands me
she really is everything to me..
honestly. no one I know understand me better than her.
and there're just soo much i wanna do with her!
I just pray that God can give me the chance to have more special moments with her.
cos i really do wanna be with her forever.
and also I pray to be stronger emotionally, cos i really have to be!
then next i wanna just plan more time with her..
cos being with her feels perfect..
even tho the time we say goodbye hurts :x
I just felt tat recently.. I guess being away from her for 2months+ caused it..
There's just this part of me that doesnt wanna say goodbye~
even for a few hours or a day or 2. I just no longer like it.
I just wanna spend time with her forever.
n thats my selfish thoughts right there..
:) so i'ma change more. and i'ma really really start cherishing every single second i have with her~
and stop regretting :) cos right now i regretted being emo during my date with her earlier.
I just hope i get another chance to make up for it this week~
anyway
I LOVE YOU DEAREST.. YOU REALLY ROCK MY WORLD..
AND I JUST WANNA THANK YOU FOR TRYING SOO HARD..
BUT STILL!!!
IF THE PROBLEM IS TOO BIG AND YOU NEED HELP~ FIND ME O!
I'M ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU! :)
IF YOU JUST NEED SOMEONE TO PRAY FOR YOU~ I CAN DO THAT TOO :)~
YOU CAN KEEP THE INFO OF YOUR PROBLEMS FROM ME.
BUT JUST TELL ME IF SOMETHING IS WRONG. I'LL FIND A WAY TO MAKE YOU HAPPY & I'LL PRAY FOR YOU :)) I LOVE YOU DEAR! MEGALOTS!
TAKE CARE & SEE YOU SOON :)))~
LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU

Static Love

2010-06-13T21:56:00.002+08:00

TODAY!
Went to Church with dear dear xD~
she cuddled my shoulder and held hands during service..
eh wait that's bad~
but still it feels good, i dunno how to explain~
it's like proclaiming our love before God~
tat's not bad. it's like bringing ur wife home to ur parents xD~
so yeah i dunno how to explain. it's just an amazing feeling to be next to her again.
& we sang this song today!
Love Is Here
quite nice~ i missed CHC praise n worship soo much when in PLKN :))~
anyway after it~ holy communion~ havent had tat in a long time~
yes! Renewed with God's precious blood in me! +_+ wakaka! rofl!

neway~ after that we went to the spring!
MBO!
watched Killers~
kinda lame, really cacat at some point~ but really i dunno~
thru out the entire movie i was more worried and more interested with her~
I guess 2months apart really can do that to a person~
I love her lots, and i just want her to be happy~
U hear that?
Dear, I just want you to be happy :)~ and i really really love you!
cuddling with her just feels really perfect, holding her just feels soo right~
and i just wish i could spend my whole life with her.
after the movie, we went to walk around spring, nothing much to do~
so yeah
went to eat at kim bay again~
erm.. before tat met up with alyn awhile
and dear saw alot of her tkd friends, a few of her old schoolmates and her 'friends'
but neway i dont really care about tat, i did~ but then i told my dear then i kinda let go of the feelings, huh.
i dunno, telling her stuff makes me feel better.
:) neway~ we ate n wasted food in kim bay. opps!
then we went back in, walk walk, see the anime fest. cacat!!!
then went to get icecream, walk walk, hold hold, wait time past.
went home :)

i know it sounds simple, but the times we shared like this really are amazing.
being with her feels soo perfect.

rite now we're chatting online, on a very complicated topic.
but i believe tat it will benefit us alot.
I know at some point it hurts her abit, but then again there's a part of her that feels lifted.
Altho it'll take time, this decision made will really be a bigggg part of my future with her.
and i'm just really thankful
and i just, ahhh~ i really really love her.
and i have no idea wat to say.
she's really amazing.
Honestly; i feel like i dont deserve her. but she's mine, so i'm gonna do my best for her, as she is doing her best for me. and i swear she's doing it better than what i wanted and i just feel soo blessed!!!
ahh!
me going crazy!
x__x! Lovesick!~
x______x rawr! x____x! errr errrr....
tat's all xD
wheeeeeeee~ BYE ALL~

Current And Amplitude

2010-06-12T09:21:00.003+08:00

KEMSIS!
KEM SETIA IKHLAS SEMENYIH!
BYE!
BYE DELTA! HEY WALLEY! :x

So! I'm back from PLKN! i have lots to share! but i wont share until i actually share with my girlfriend cos it wouldnt be fun if she knew now, rite pric? xD
rofl~
will blog about PLKN tomorrow after my date with dearest~ xD
cant wait cant wait~
meeting her tonight b4 church too! YAY!

neway~
lots have happened but praying ~~last~~ THIS MORNING helped lots..
and re-reading my blog made me realize a few other stuff too..
so i know what i have to do now, i dunno anything about my career and future yet
but i know what i want from my relationship~
and i know how i want it to end.
and i know God is right here with me thru it~
so yeah!
I feel hella better~ i dont even care about problems nemore..
all i care about is her..
here i wanna thank all my friends who helped me too~
I'm just really thankful rite now~
and ahhhhh! I GET TO SEE HER AFTER 2 MONTHS!
YES!
CANT WAIT!
WHEEEEEEEEE~
HYPED!
HAHAHAHA~ Wheeeeeeeeeeee~
LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU!!!
I'M BE YOUR PERFECT BOYFRIEND~ :)
COS TO ME, YOU'RE THE PERFECT GIRLFRIEND~
AT LEAST FOR SOMEONE LIKE ME xD
I AM CRAZY! WHEEE! WAKAKA! :)
LOVE YOU MEGALOTS DEAREST
WILL GIVE YOU ANOTHER AMAZING DATE TOMORROW :))~
JUST HOLD ON YA? xD

2 is better than one

2010-04-28T21:07:00.000+08:00

so hmm...~
i dunno wat to say!
HOLIDAYS!
PLKN better than expected. tho i still miss kuching alot~
wanna upload pics and artworks but... cant cos my bro no scanner and i dont have my phone's USB.. #$%^&*
Dearest, i miss u lots, think of u everyday n night..
so much that it hurts... doesnt matter tho.... 1month+ and i'll see u again~
i love u always n forever
nothing much to post really..
I just really miss home... own church.... Her!... my friends.. my gang of friends.. Sarawak food~ rofl
gahh~ really nothing left to say.. so yeah~
hard times we havin~ hard times..
but we'll make it thru~
Dearest.. I LOVE YOU LOTS!

ahh ahh ahhh!! FIRST KISS! :D

2010-03-18T22:17:00.003+08:00

TODAY! IS A GREAT DAY!
Aside from the blackout before finishing the movie~
anyway x)
YEAH!~
went to the spring with dearest~ and caught Alice In Wonderland~
ohoh before dat! today her mum drove +__+! ROFL! xD
so yeahh
tat asidee~
went to watch Alice in wonderland at 12:45.. saw Hao En~ =__=! kena suan
tat aside~
Gave her Dixon! the teddy bear :)~
so yeah she hugged it! :DDD~
ahem~
Movie... not gonna discuss ~ almost finish whole spring blackout~
:D we just in there waste time~ ROFL!
drank at Sugarbun while drawing her artwork for her friends..
ermm eermm~ we kia kia... went MPH, bought koropok, sit around~ la la la~
:X went to sing Karaoke! x)~
Hahax~ get to hear her amazing voice :B
la la la~ afterwards met Pei Shi, Mei Shi and their friends going into the K-box while we walked out~
oh dinner we went to eat at Kim Bay..
Ordered 1 dish~ :B the... Cheese Baked Rice With Chicken Chop And Curry Sauce +_+!
It taste really really nice~ xD rofl~
ALSO! I got my right arm a bitemark today too! :D most likely gonna turned into a bruise like the left arm :X~ Love-bite on both arms +___+! sounds soo wrong :X mehh~ love it :D
ermm ermm ermmmm~ :D i think i'll just stop here xD byeh all! :X~

For You

2010-03-17T20:17:00.002+08:00

MY BELOVED!!
I MADE THIS FOR YOU! :))~
The Most Simple Animation Ever ;D

怪怪女

2010-03-17T19:11:00.003+08:00

怪怪女

我跟蹤她已經整個夏季
Wo gen zong ta yi jing zheng ge xia ji
還沒有看清她長的美不美麗
Hai mei you kan qing Ta zhang de mei bu mei li
只知道不管她走到那裡
Zhi zhi dao bu guan ta zou dao na li
腳上總是穿著一雙白色Nike
Jiao shang zong shi chuan zhe yi shuang Bai se Nike

我給她取了個外號叫怪怪女
Wo gei ta qu le ge wai hao Jiao guai guai nu
因為我看見她穿古裝去看電影
Yin wei wo kan jian ta Chuan gu zhuang qu kan dian ying
這個夏天眼看就要過去
Zhe ge xia tian Yan kan jiu yao guo qu
我連介紹自己的勇氣
Wo lian jie shao zi ji de yong qi
都還不知道在哪裡
Dou hai bu zhi dao zai na li

怪怪女還是乖乖女
Guai guai nu hai shi guai guai nu
我要扮成梁山伯還是李小龍
Wo yao ban cheng liang shan bo hai shi Li xiao long
才能引起妳的注意
Cai neng yin qi ni de zhu yi
怪怪女還是乖乖女
Guai guai nu hai shi guai guai nu
妳是什麼星座血型
Ni shi shen me xing zuo xue xing
連我爺爺都好奇
Lian wo ye ye dou hao qi
妳該不會是別的星球來的異形
Ni gai bu hui shi bie de xing qiu Lai de yi xing

我給她取了個外號叫怪怪女
Wo gei ta qu le ge wai hao Jiao guai guai nu
因為我看見她穿古裝去看電影
Yin wei wo kan jian ta Chuan gu zhuang qu kan dian ying
這個夏天眼看就要過去
Zhe ge xia tian Yan kan jiu yao guo qu
我連介紹自己的勇氣
Wo lian jie shao zi ji de yong qi
都還不知道在哪裡
Dou hai bu zhi dao zai na li

怪怪女還是乖乖女
Guai guai nu hai shi guai guai nu
我要扮成梁山伯還是李小龍
Wo yao ban cheng liang shan bo hai shi Li xiao long
才能引起妳的注意
Cai neng yin qi ni de zhu yi
怪怪女還是乖乖女
Guai guai nu hai shi guai guai nu
妳是什麼星座血型
Ni shi shen me xing zuo xue xing
連我爺爺都好奇
Lian wo ye ye dou hao qi
妳該不會是別的星球來的異形
Ni gai bu hui shi bie de xing qiu Lai de yi xing

野蠻女友已經換季
Ye man nu you yi jing huan ji
漂亮女生早就被人追去
Piao liang nyu sheng zao jiu bei ren zhui qu
乖乖女和我又有些距離
Guai guai nu he wo you you xie ju li
我想怪怪女才是我的粉紅知己
Wo xiang guai guai nu Cai shi wo de fen hong zhi ji
還好我有自知之明
Hai hao wo you zi zhi zhi ming

怪怪女還是乖乖女
Guai guai nu hai shi guai guai nu
我要扮成梁山伯還是李小龍
Wo yao ban cheng liang shan bo hai shi Li xiao long
才能引起妳的注意
Cai neng yin qi ni de zhu yi
怪怪女還是乖乖女
Guai guai nu hai shi guai guai nu
妳是什麼星座血型
Ni shi shen me xing zuo xue xing
連我爺爺都好奇
Lian wo ye ye dou hao qi
妳該不會是別的星球來的異形
Ni gai bu hui shi bie de xing qiu Lai de yi xing

NO!

2010-03-06T02:40:00.005+08:00

Nonononono~
:D tis aint a love blog~ it's my blog!
thus this time posting~ my hobbies~

FIRST OFF!
THE PHONE I WANT!
which have had like 2songs dedicated to it!
1st one was Lollipop by BigBang and 2NE1
and then Lollipop Part 2 by BigBang (which the song was released early this year and got yet again great ratings)

But I'm Not Talking About Boybands and cute koreans here!
Nonono~
Here I'm Expressing That I want THIS PHONE!
LG Cyon LOLLIPOP! (LG GD580) :DD~

The whole thing is like L.E.D.! it's all LIGHTS! :DDD~
which makes it totally awesome! and cool! and artistic!
and creative~ so big ++for me~
also it plays most of the common format of songs
and it comes packed with it's own 3Megapixel Camera
and it's awesome that u can set the shining light thingy on the cover to watever u like! ;D
Hahax :))~

MORE INFO HERE:
Cell Phone Review

NEXT!!!
MUSIC!!!

SUG! :DDD~
Hahax their latest Single "Gr8 Story" :D

Click Here To View

NEXTTTT~
GAMES

DEKARON

Been playing this game with the gang!

and well its the same as the other MMO RPG~ but of course, we're playing the dedicated PRIVATE server :)
Better known as EliteDekaron pirated by the pirates of the company EliteKingdom~
Overall Great Game!!
More Details Here:
EliteDekaron

NEXT! MOVIE!

The Other day went out with friends too
and caught
The Wolfman!

UGLY WEREWOLF GOOD STORY..
Thats pretty much it~

today today today!

2010-03-02T23:25:00.002+08:00

:) went out with her!!!
watched Hot Summer Days
AND IT'S OUR 3 MONTH ANNIVERSARY!~
ALSO OUR 121 DAY ANNIVERSARY! xDD~
hahax~
nice movie!
cool~! weird~ and funneh!
rofl~
ahhh~ xD
amazing!
especially when it's with her alone in a couples cineplex hall! hehe~
wheeeeeeeeeee~
I love her soo much!!!
we ate at KFC afterwards~
then went back to chonglin cos she wanted to online awhile
then back to her school for her TKD, stayed with her till hanjing went to pick me~
so yeahh~
nice day~
:D
great day~~~ Hehe~
wheeeeeeeeeee~
as always, not elaborating with the conversations and 'stuff'~ :X
tho Pei Shi knows abit about it xDDD~

gahhh~

2010-03-01T07:59:00.003+08:00

There's Still Soo Much I Want To Say.. :\

days

2010-02-25T00:30:00.003+08:00

On tuesday~ (23/02)
I went to the spring with..
Hanjing, Eric, Feng, Lee Hui, Jung Yong, Timothy And Siang Yong~
to catch

Percy Jackson and the Olympians: The Lightning Thief

It was an ok movie~
Greek Gods and what not... wont be talking much on tat..
cos I really just went to watch that, then went home, online and gaming~~

Yesterday~
Wednesday~ (24/02)
Went out with XiaoYing again after one year!
ermmm she was feeling down so yeah cheered her up~
even tho she did hurted me alot in the past, i forgive her and i actually feel sad for her and of course i still care for her.. so yeahh~
Hahax, tho most of the time when we were out today~
we were worried how pricilla might feel~
ohhh~ i msged her in the morning telling her about going out so yeahh..
she said; "Alright, you should go out~ no objections~"
and that just really made me feel trusted, and it just ahhh~ amazing feeling~ cos i know it's hard for her to actually trust people.. even me sometimes..
so it really meant alot~
so yeah the outing with xiaoying was weird really..
awkward at first, but became more n more natural and eventually it felt like we were friends like last time again~
:) we both had fun~

watched 14Blades... kinda lame.. but Wu Chun looks shuai! :X ROFL!

anyway~ yeahh~ x) we talked alot really..
and I just really hope she knows that i really do care about her and is here for her anytime~
end of the day we went for chocolate milkshakes cos i remember how she likes those.. so yeahh!
and then after getting home, she msged with pricilla.. and they're becoming friends..
and well~ nothing i love more than this :D~
Hahax~ :))~ really great~
I just cant express how much this actually means to me..
my friendship with ying and my relationship with pricilla~
:) and how wonderful that they can become friends xD~
wheeeeeeeeeeee~ ahhhhhhhhhhh~
speechless~ xD
and i loveeeeeeee pricilla more n more n moreeeeeeee~
everything she does or even just say just really....
sounds really right and it just makes me love her more...

in spite of

2010-02-21T02:17:00.004+08:00

I LOVE PUI ENN PRICILLA~ A WHOLE LOT!
and more n more everyday~
:) today (21/02/2010) would be our 112th day anniversary!
Hehe.. and it's just been really really great being with her in this relationship~
everything that has happened just made this relationship stronger n stronger n better~
and i just really love her lots~
altho she may threat me unfairly at times~ ahem~
I love her lots! I love her personality lots~ xD
I love her smile, i love her emotions, i love her laughter, i love her voice.. ahh~!
I'm completely head over heels in love with her xD
and everything just feels soo perfect!
and I really cant wait for the 8+years to be up so i can finally propose to her ;)~
Hehe~ hahax~ ahh! just purely amazing :)~
and even if she treats me mean to me till i'm like completely annoyed~ (tho she has fun =.=)
I love her lots :) and if she love to make me annoyed makes her laugh~ who cares!
xD I love holding her in my arm.. :) I love her own unique style of expressing..
and it's just worth everything..
This Love is worth everything..
I LOVE YOU! :)))~

dots

2010-02-18T19:50:00.003+08:00

ermm.. so i havent blogged in awhile been in KL the last week till 16th~
spent yesterday with my sweetheart pricilla~
ermm
I love her lots~
twas our belated valentine's day celebration and also our 108th day anniversary~ ;)~
anyway~~
I had to goto her house to bai nian.. her mum insisted.. so yeahhh~
after tat we went out to star
not much movie on.. ended up watching Valentine's Day~ ;)~
ermm.. ate at KFC for lunch..
then walk walk here and there~
lotsa coupling stuff of course ;)~ hugging and all tat :X~
anyway~
continuing on~
it was raining too, but we walked in the rain so yeahh~
went to the star cineplex balcony :)~
I love that!
holding her by her shoulder and under her chin with her holding my arm tightly~
ahh~
:X ermm ermm ermmm~
I'm not gonna elaborate on the conversation or anything else besides tat which is written ;)~
so yeah.. went to watch the movie at 4..
ermmm not gonna elaborate on the movie or wat we did at the cinema hall ;x
ahem~
hmm ahh~
oh i passed her THE Necklace~ ;)~
it's a couple's necklace.. so yeahh~
ermmmm had dinner at hanjing's uncle's shop~
hmmm~
nothing much after tat... :X
or at least nothing much i wanna talk about xD~
i dunno wat happened at the end of the day tho..
her mood suddenly dropped ~_~
ahh~ but not to like super super low... just not as high as it was earlier in the day~
hmm~
she said i shudnt worry and she's fine.
so I trust her, and i love her and i really hope she's ok~
:)~
I love youuuuuuuu~
*looks at my half of the necklace~*
ahh! I'm missing a heart! T.T
lol... i miss you dear!

ok

2010-02-10T19:22:00.005+08:00

I went out with dear dear yesterday after her classes ended~
:) hehe~
I was really really happy to see her ~
and I was SURPRISED! SHE BROUGHT ME COOKIES! SHE BAKED THEM! :D and The Book She Wanted To Lend Me So I Wont Be Bored Or Forget Her When I'm Not Here :)~
I really love her! She's being like totally sweet!~!~!
Well we walked back to my house so i could leave the cookies and book there~
and then we walked to 100% Discount Store~
she dragged me to the nearby kopitiam first tho... knowing i din eat breakfast or lunch~
:x she kinda forced me to eat also~ ordering food and drinks without my consent X__x
but it's sweet.... that she knows what i like and wat i wouldnt like~
well ok.. i'ma guessing my taste in food and hers are really similar anyway.. so mehh~ xD
i love her lots.. :) and i really really love the way she looks... she's actually.. really really beautiful~
in her own unique way~ and i love her eyes, her cute nose, her soft cute lips, her sweet smile.. and i shud stop before i lose track of wat i wanna blog~ =x
ermm ermm.. where was i.. oh yes!
after lunch we went into 100% discount store, and looked at the random shops in there.. nothing nice or at least nothing tat fits dear's taste :B~
ah well~ :) I loveeeeeee walking with her... it's never dull~
and i get to put my arm around her...
love her soo soo soooo much!
uhmmm~
oh right.. after 100% we went to Saberkas... 真的很巧!!! when we walk through the front door~
met penny and freddy~ they were at one of the store right in front of the front door~ rofl!
lame xD~anyway~
dear was thirsty so we ended up going to the supermarket :)~
we bought drinks.. well she did.. ~.~ i really dont understand why she wants to pay~?
anyway~
afterwards we went up to check out the clothes and shoes.. :)
wont get too detailed on that, cept we were being couple-ish in the shoestore ;)~ hahax jokes, footsies etc etc ;x until we finished our drinks, then she checked out the shoes
and bought new heels... she was pissed tho.. :B
cos i kinda forked out cash to pay for it before she did.. and she was annoyed cos i was spending on her~ =x weird enough?
ermm afterwards we walk walk walk every shop in saberkas...
she bought herself new speakers and a FM Modulator~
hmmm~
yah... :) we did lots of stuff in between i supposed... but still nothing much to mention~
y'all can guess xD~ couple ba.. :B~
hahax we left soon after and well yeah.. we went back to chonglin to online~
and all tat.. played sdo with her too... :x
hmmmmm~
overall a great great day~
oh.. while we were on the way to chonglin~ she bit me~ and as arousing as tat was :X~
ahem... i dont know it just felt amazing :B~
I love her! even the part of her which has trouble expressing xD~ I still love her lots...
ermm ermmm~
I proposed to her! at least on buddypoke :))~
Hahax~ afterwards went to drink at a kopitiam...
she planted a plaster on the bitemark :B~ soo cute soo sweet~
soo.. ahhh~
and she looked soo beautiful~
i wanted to take a pic of her.. but she kept looking away :(
ermm soo yeah..
we parted ways soo after.. as she had trainings... :((~
sigh!
I miss her sooo much!!!
and i'm going KL tomorrow!
T_______T! I'ma gonna die without her!
T.T~ rawr i love her oh soooo much!
the cookies she made are delicious~! or maybe i'm just lovesick~ i dont know~ xD
I'm still alive and it tastes great cos it's from her!
ahhhh~! I love her soo soooo much!

the book isnt half bad either!
and.... the note she wrote.. is just...... sweet...
T___T! i dunno how i'ma gonna leave her tomorrow..
I dont wanna go KL... rawr...
T.T!
RAAWRRR~!
erhmm...
so yeah.. tat's about it for yesterday...
today nothing special..
tomorrow nothing special either i think..
alls i know is i miss her lots... and i dont know what to do!
I love her lots! :( and thats kinda it~

hmm

2010-02-09T00:04:00.002+08:00

okaye so... ermm..
yesterday wasnt that great of the day..
well it was cos i was spending the entire day sms-ing with dear dear~
but at the end of the day she was moodless
so yeahh..
I was worried the whole hours from that moment till tis morning~
x___x
couldnt sleep well either..
well i prayed for her safety and stuff...
and ended up dreaming a really really amazingly sweet dream about her..
and it really made me realize how much she means to me, and how much i need her and how much i really really want to be have a lasting relationship with her also a great future with her~
left her lots of messages and all that..
but she was still kinda sad..
but she was ok by the afternoon... and well yeah... :)
tomorrow we're going out..
I'm gonna give her another great date cos she deserves it~
for the way that she loves me~ she deserve lots...
I love her lots...
so i'm gonna do everything i can do tomorrow for her..
cos after tomorrow.. it'd be wednesday.. which she'd be busy with her classes and i'd be busy with my packing..
and by thursday i'm off to KL...
and I just cant bare leaving her here... :(
but i have to~ I'd be contact her every single day that i'm there~
and also really really gonna try to make tomorrow well today~ a great day :)~
ahh~ I love her soo much~ :))~
This is just... a really... amazing relationship..
definitely worth sacrificing everything for~
so i guess..
thank God for showing me how much she actually means and why i should keep going and have faith in tis
:) Cos if i din dream of her last night i might not feel this amazing feeling of being loved by her which i now feel really really deeply~
ahh~
I just wanna hug n kiss her soo badly! :S I wanna shower and drown her with my love and affection~
she just totally mean a whole lot to me!

I LOVE YOU!

love~

2010-02-07T19:49:00.000+08:00

so like... ermmm
well i went out with my dear on friday and hanged with her on saturday..
and i dunno wat to say really
just really really amazing days..
SHE WROTE ME A SONG! :DDD~ SWEET AH!
SUPER SWEET!
:)) I love her lots!!!!
I wanna post more.. but... i dunno wat to post...
all i have to say is she means a lot to me
and i'll never give her a reason to leave my side :)~

wtf?!

2010-02-07T19:46:00.000+08:00

I just found an article about a girl getting raped by her boyfriend and his 2 friends around midnight...
wtf?! it's recent news and it's in malaysia.. Miri to be more precised =.=!

and if you actually searched it out.... as in..

http://www.topix.com/forum/world/malaysia/T8OPB5258VGB1MTR4

you'd see how fucked up our country is... really nice... totally... very very much.. yeah!
sia soi jor! wtf!
x____x! I dont wanna live here anymore after reading that...
I will be getting married to my current girlfriend someday and we're planning to have a daughter~
and this is totally NOT the environment i want my daughter to live in..
wtf?!
ok done.. :)~

Yesterday~

2010-01-31T19:01:00.002+08:00

So Like erm... I dunno~
:X Went out with dear dear yesterday after her debate :)
we walked and walked and walked and talked and ate and went to a cybercafe~ then went to church..
hmm yahh~
nothing much really... she's not 100% well~
uhhh, I'm not sure did i actually cheer her up or not, but she was smiling and laughing
so i guess she's ok~
I love her lots, so i'ma doing everything to make/keep her happy
no matter the cost :)
cos she deserves it~
Plus I'ma totally addicted to her xD~ so I cant stop being sweet to her even if i wanted to~
:X~ LOL! In spite of a few bumps and awkward time of silence~
we had a good enough night..
just being together for a moment can really change alot of things~
even tho it only changed her mood from 'moderate' to 'slightly above moderate' as she calls it~
It's good enough i think? :)~
Hahax~
It's gonna be our 3month anniversary in like 2 days!
but due to her having school and all tat i guess i cant do much with/for her tat day~
that aside~
I love her lots.
That's y i'ma doing all i can to help her maintain her stress level for school steady and lighten her burdens. +being at all her performances and competitions as a supporter~
like last friday where i walked to her school just to watch her Taekwondo Demonstration Performance :)~ She did ok~ tho she complained tat it wasnt good enough~
I'm not so sure of course xD cos i dunno a thing about tkd~
so yeahh :x
mehh~
that's kinda it for my last week~ so yeahhh...
she's still not at her 100%~ but i guess it'd be changing by the time she has her CNY holidays.
heh~ and tat's it for my blogpost~
Peace out~

short post

2010-01-25T15:11:00.001+08:00

short post...

It hurts but I'm enduring through it because i love you :)

the day

2010-01-22T21:20:00.002+08:00

ermm.. today was a very tiring day~~~
I walked with my dear pretty much the entire day o__o!
yesterday she said that she wanted to see her friends but couldnt cos no transport..
thus I asked if she wanted to walk there... she said ok ~
so we ended up walking there together :)~
uhh.... romantic enough~
i mean in korean drama and japanese anime people walk all the time~~ + it's romantic
ok, it's more sucky that the malaysian air is slightly less fresh =X~
but still :)~ it was good enough~
I'ma willing to do anything to make her happy~
and she is..
cos she got the meet the people she love (her friends)~
be with her beloved ;)~ and doing the thing she loves too~
so all good~ I guess
Hahax~
ermmm... we talked, we had dinner together, walked together and so on~
so yeah.. overall a great day...
tiring of course
out from 12+ to 7+
so yeah...
I thought her abit of add maths too @_@!
random~
sigh!
and i miss her... and crappy enough i wont get to see her for the next erm... really really really long o_____o!
cos she's gonna be bz with training and practicing for the taekwondo demonstration and all tat
so yeahhhh~
...
ermmmm all aside, today was a great day :)~
cherish every moment with her...
Hahax~ met her friends uhhh~ yahh din talk to them much~
my mind was like blank~
cos i was like in an all girl school... and tat's like sooo wtf?
so yeah~ :x
met Pricilla's 'instructor'? or coach or watever~
Lawrence... ermmmmm xD I kinda agree with my gf tat his kinda gay =X
not anything cos she said tat he's 20 and he doesnt act tat way thus the observation~
but he was right about the part where he wasnt a bad coach cos i can see that he was really stressing when teaching O_O!
Hahax~ and Pricilla was like complaining tat i shouldnt be taking his side xD
ahhh...
all tat asideeeeeeee~
I really miss her now...
and it's gonna be a really sucky and lonely 10+ days which i wont get to see her :S
so yeahhh~
Hahax~ all in all still ok la... =X

Interesting

2010-01-21T18:01:00.003+08:00

Sharing Something Interesting~

I played League of Legends~
and unlocked Evelynn : The Widowmaker~

She can turn invisible and kick the hell outta ya~
yesh~ she only kicks and yesh with her pointy high heels~
(cough~ sounds like my girlfriend. alot!)
but anyway~ ;D
she's an interesting assassin :)~ tho i lost a lot of games with her =\
sigh!
but she's fun~ xD invisibility rawks~ and she moves fast :)~
and i like the things she says~
Quote: "It takes a lot of effort to move like this in heels"
random i know :)~

It's just tat she reminded me of my girlfriend~
all the darkness, heels, kicking and o.O i dunno xD

ahhh I miss my girlfriend soo much!
whom I'ma gonna spend the afternoon with tomorrow! YES!
:D Hahax~ I'ma sacrificing with her :D
ROFL!
And i love her soo sooo soooooooo much! :)

AHH

2010-01-19T17:55:00.004+08:00

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

:D I love her soo much!
T_T she came to visit :D and she stayed for like 2 hours~
eikkk~ I feel totally Blessed to have such a loving girlfriend...
:) Huggies I Love You Lots~ even though you cant online to read this~
I really really love you lots~
and i'm gonna miss you!~

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

wishes

2010-01-19T14:15:00.004+08:00

I wish she could understand that she can trust me whole heartedly in whatever happening in her life...
cos I love her beyond everything else...
aiks~
even if she wants to break up i dont mind cos I'd always love her...
and even if I cant be with her at least she'll be happy... or happier watever
and if her problems is like revolving around people falling for her..
It doesnt matter cos as long as she loves me back~
who cares about the rest of the people?
that aside...
the dream i had about her being kissed by others..
I never told her about the ending..
:) we still managed to maintain a good relationship n get married even in that dream...
how? well cos it didnt matter to me in the dream..
as it wouldnt matter to me now..
cos... as far as i'm concern.. if i can just be with her in the end everything is worth it..
all the hardship all the suffering and need of endurance.. all worth it..
cos i love her that much...
If only she knew... how much i really love her...
and I really hope she'll feel better...
I dislike seeing her like this :S

ah well at least i know it didnt cause her to feel like tis :X
tat's good.... at some point... ~

RAWR i still hope she feels better...
eikk! seriously! i love her! T_T A Lot! and i know she loves me too..
and whatever hardship that comes in this relationship is to make it stronger..
yahh totally :D Stronger~

So My darling sweetheart I love you :)~ and always will~
I wont give up if u wont :) so shall we move on together? :D

and i'd do anything to hear her say "I love you" to me again.... :(

rawr

2010-01-18T22:37:00.002+08:00

I miss my darling soo much~
sigh!
swt!
rawr!
she was abit unwell yesterday...
and ask me to leave her alone til she feels better~
and she'll contact me till she's ok again..
sigh!
I miss her already~
=.=! rawr~
meow~
errrrr errrrrrr errrrrrrrrrr~
speechless :B that's kinda it ;)~

--------------------------------------------------------------
It's been 1 and a half days since we last contacted
and i'ma starting to worry..
but maybe she's busy with her schoolwork~ so i dont know...
I'ma still waiting..
hoping for her to contact me soon...
but I cant help but wonder to myself..
if i did anything wrong... but looking back i think i didnt...
even if i did, there doesnt seem to be any way for me to fix it.
considering that i wont get to see her often anymore...
argh..
I hope whatever she's going through doesnt affect this relationship :(~
I love her lots...
sigh! and I'm missing her lots!

Amumu

2010-01-15T17:06:00.002+08:00

Playing League Of Legends Still... ermmm now Earning Points to unlock a rather cute character~

Amumu: The Sad Mummy
(Isnt the name cute enuf already?! :X totally emo :D~ Totally My Style )

Perhaps one of the oddest champions in the League of Legends is the yordle known as Amumu. His life before joining the League remains unknown - especially to Amumu. All he remembers is that he woke up alone inside a pyramid within the Shurima Desert. He was entwined in mummy wrappings and he could not feel his heart beat. Furthermore, he felt a deep sadness that he could not entirely explain; he knew he missed his parents, though he could not remember who they were. Dropping to his knees, Amumu wept into his bandages. No matter what he did, it seemed he could just never stop his tears or sadness. Eventually he got up off his knees to mope and wander the world, making his way to the League; it would seem that even the raw power of unleashed emotions can be used to benefit the plans of summoners.

''Things are bad when Amumu is crying, but they're much worse when he's angry.''

Another Day

2010-01-14T23:26:00.003+08:00

Today~~~
Rainy day~

ermm woke up from a dream about dear dear ;)~
Rawr..
I really cant wait to hold her in my arms and call her mine after marriage :D
Ahh~
I love you soo much darling! :D

Hahax... ermm so.. uhhh~
Hanjing came in the afternoon ~ cos we were all like gaming earlier today~ and he complained about virus and lag
so he brought his com here later on and ask me to help him format whilst also I transfer to him League Of Legends :)~

hahax
so yeah..
It's actually a very fun game.. and kinda cute... :)~ with it's range of characters..
Like like this girl;

Annie: The Dark Child~
ermmm yeahh! she can cause fire with her hands =.=!
shoots fireballs, set the ground on fire, blah blah blah
:D but but! I loveee her skill where her teddy bear actually turns like gigantic and on fire @_@
reminds me of my first horror movie.. AKIRA... :S
Anyway~ it's cool :D~

uhmm uhmmm~
Currently I'ma using
Kayle: The Judicator

Hahax... :)~
You can guess why I picked to use her among the others
She's an angel :D~
heal, fast, and she has a flaming halo and her sword can be enflamed +_+

I'm 99% sure hanjing would be using
Master Yi

just a gut feeling tho xD~~

Ahh! Ok ok ok~~
that's enough about gaming...

ermmm~
lately I've been really worried about dear dear...
she kinda injured her back and still doing lots of work...
hmm~
I hope she's alright :(
I love her sooo much~~~
Hahax cant wait to see her :DDD~

actually

2010-01-12T19:12:00.003+08:00

Today is actually not a bad day~
neither was yesterday~
ahh! forget it!
everyday is great, cos I have her as my girlfriend :DDD~
I love you pricilla ;D
more than anything~

:D
ah~
so like ermm yesterday~
hmmmm~ Xiaoying added me on msn~
she was feeling sad =.=!
rawr~ she like only contact me when she's unwell.. wahtttt~ ;)~
hopefully someday she'll contact me as a friend rather than a shoulder to cry on...
that aside~
uhhhmmmm~
:D ah~
My dear~ soo hardworking! she did all her homework yesterday~
and her mum was soo proud that she let her online :DD~
yay!
tho she was sick.. :( she still didnt wanna sleep early...
eik! feels like it's my fault cos she online cos she misses me ((soo touching! :'D))

and and~
todayyyy~
hanjing came over to as he calls it; ''tu si kan'' LOL! waste time xD
and downloaded a new game~

League Of Legends

Still on the patching phrase.. sooo might only be able to play tomorrow
ermmmm~
yeahhh
hanjing may wanna take it so... okayes~
anyway~
4+ Pricilla dear came! with Michelle
:D~ OMG!
I totally freaked.... without expressing out =X~
cos i din know she'd actually ever visit me...
so touched ah!
soo sweet~~~
T_T made me love her more~
I really really love her a lot...
sigh!
and now i miss her lots too~
ahh~
ermm ermmmmmmm~
OH!
this morning 1am+ i watch... Hua Mu Lan (the 2009 movie not the cartoon or the old version)
AIKS!
I made me miss dear dear more... :D
but i got to see her today~
ahhhhhhhhhhhh~
I dunno wat to say really....
I just feel soooooo.... Blessed? xD~
:) DEAR! YOU ARE AMAZING! LOVE YOU LOTS!

LOVE!

2010-01-09T22:51:00.004+08:00

I LOVE HER

I've learned that,
Punching walls, drawing, onlineing, complaining and all tat.... are bad and useless
compared to praying, reading the bible and thinking of ways to show her my love :D~

so if ever i'm bored or weak i'ma keep in mind the person whom i love most, Pricilla :D and the god whom i love as well :)~

today overall great
:D I'm just really really happy...
I'm definately gonna be a better person! :)~

that means the next time and everytime i see her, I'm going to try to make it all memorable :)
as in a good way la~ LOL!

:) Cos tat's how much i love her, and I just want her to stay happy :D
I can live without seeing her, hearing her, touching her... but i cannot live without her...
I'm happy with what i have.... so i'ma cherishing it :)~
I LOVE YOU DEAR.. ALWAYS!

CHURCH?
TODAY I LEARNED ABOUT...

That's it :) Hahax~
SUCCEED!
and pastor kelvin gave a small testimonial too
and it kinda made me wanna go SOT~
someday :)~
Hahax so i might.... Someday~
xD
and I think i'm going Asia Conference :)~
Only Have One Life To Live... So Livin A Little xD

ermm

2010-01-09T15:09:00.003+08:00

ermm...
I'm lost
I love her...
but still lost....
damn it..
I broke her trust and gave her doubts..
and I've hurt her...
aiks...
I hope i can make it up to her...
Readers..
Pray for me..? :(
and also pray for her...
cos however this turns out I dont want her to get sad...
or emo again..
sigh
I feel bad.... But I have to fix this somehow..
I just hope I'm given the chance to...
I guess I'm off to pray for a solution or something..
It's too late to make any plans right now...
& I still dont know If I'd see her tonight...
wish i could take it all back...
I had a nightmare the night before too...
it was... really heartbreaking... aiks...
why is this happening? :S
and what am i suppose to do...?
wait?... T_T

My baby

2010-01-07T22:14:00.003+08:00

:)~
Dear Dear
u mean everything to me
and i'll do anything to remove all your worries and problems from your heart and mind :)~
Huggies~
I love you more than anything~
I'll always be here to support you in your studies and dreams :D~
If only you knew how much you mean to me :X
rofl~
wheeeeeeeeeeeeee~
I LOVE YOU DEAR!
and i'm not afraid to show it ;)~
Hehe~
Dont ever doubt this~ we are together and forever we are~
And and~ seriously cant wait to have Arisu with you~
Hehe~
Our time apart strengthens us~
and makes us miss each other enough to make us want one another more~!
ROFL! xD
SOOO~~~~~ I MISS YOU! :)~
AND I CANT WAIT TO SEE YOU~ hehe~
Thank you for being such a sweet gf~
~~XOXO~~

:DD

2010-01-04T12:03:00.003+08:00

I love my sweet dear, Pricilla more and more each passing second!
and i miss her soo much~~

I hope she's doing well in her first day in her new school :)~

anyway..
did i mention she wore a dress last sat?!
ahhhhh~ She looked.. really... amazing!
I love her sooooo much!
She just started school again today, so i might not be able to ask her out or see her as often
:( but but, I'll wait~ Dear! I love you!!

ohh!
On the 31st~ I went to watch
Cirque Du Freak: Vampire's Assistant

Very very very very nice movie~ 8.5/10

nothing much to post really...

just posting cos i know i havent posted anything in a long timeee~

but right now all I know is I miss her and hope she's doing ok :)~
Huggies!

:)

2010-01-01T11:05:00.003+08:00

You are everything to me~
dont think you're not good enough~
cos you are...
In various of ways you are...
you've changed a lot, and u know that too...

Every night when i sleep it's you i dream off...
the one who hugs me cos of love and care..
the one who tries her hardest to be someone loving..
and even though you think you cant be that person..
I know you will be :)
cos I've seen you change, from bad to good to the amazing person whom I'm happy to call my girlfriend today...

Dont doubt yourself, and dont doubt my judgement..
I'm not blind, nor am i deaf...
and hey.. Look it's already 2009~

and almost our 2month anniversary and seriously it has been hard, i admit..
and you cant say it wasnt either...
but we pulled through.. :)
and right now it's getting harder but what can we do but pull through too rite?
Love Conquers All~ and not only in fairytales ;)
We've been through soo much~
So just hold on with me~
Everything will end up alright...
You know it, I know it...
cos we have our Faith+Hope in the future :)
so nothing is gonna break us...

Huggies I LOVE YOU~
and you love me~
that's all that matters... that's always been all that matters
even the bible is written;
"faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is LOVE"
:) and our love is unlike any other, so just hold on with me.
One day in the not too distant future.
we're gonna get married and we're gonna have a family together :)
xD dont doubt my judgement ba... we've talked about how great Arisu's going to be..
not because of how great i am.. but because how great she's gonna be because of both of us.

both our talents and both our genetics and gonna make her amazing
so how can you even doubt urself for not being good enough?
you will become better i know you will and you know u can...
I will guide you if you're lost, cos i'm your boyfriend/future husband
and i love you unconditionally~
see that ? UNCONDITIONALLY =x

We'll pull through like we always will..
we have a strong relationship that's gonna last forever.
and Youuuuuuu cant deny that ;D
we've agreed that tis is a perfectly imperfect relationship ;)~
so lets prove it to ourselves and everyone else...
and if it's still not clear to you~

I LOVE YOU!
changing or not, changed or not... I've loved you and i always will...

Happy Birthday Dear

2009-12-30T23:52:00.004+08:00

:)~
Huggies!
I know the lasting 2 months of this relationship have been hard,
But I want you to know that I love you more and more with each hardship :)~
Happy Birthday :)~
Although we might not be able to hang out on this wonderful day,
Just keep in mind that soon, your next few birthdays are gonna be the best days of your life~
I'll make sure of it...
So Dont Worry~ Huggies!

Blessed Be The Day That I Met You :)~
and blessed is the day you are borned~
For if not for it I would not be able to be with you~
You are perfect in soo many ways even you dont know~
Nothing compares to you...
You are my everything...
I love you more than anything...

I wish I could give you something on this special day..
Besides This Poem Of Course...
But sad to say;
I dont have a gift for you... eik!
Please dont feel bad ok?
I'll make it up to you someday~
But for now my dear, let me say;
Happy Birthday with all my heart today...
I love you more and more each day...
And this relationship is lasting forever...
Your wish for this is a little wasted,
Cos we're together now and forever we will be...
What ever comes our way for now..
We'll Be Fine So Dont Frown~
I Love You Dear,
Now More Than Ever...
So I'ma Sticking to you forever.
Happy Birthday Again, My Dear.
Hope You Have A Great One

Love You!!

Dear~~~

2009-12-29T19:35:00.002+08:00

I LOVE YOU!

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥More than anything! ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

Lets do what we can to make tis last forever!

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

XOXO

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

Wronged?

2009-12-29T19:04:00.002+08:00

I keep wondering if i did something wrong in this relationship~
I have not the slightest idea of how to be a good boyfriend~
and right now I seriously miss her.

She's stressing about ''Time'' and i dont know how to help~
I told her if she needs me, she should call me... She never does..
So I'm holding to the hope that she's alright.
and hopefully she knows she can contact me if she's really down.
Sigh~

I wanna do more for her...
I wanna be more for her......
But she never tells me what she wants me to do :(
I wish she'd stop thinking she's not good enough for me.
Cos I know tat's bothering her really.
But she is enough.. more than enough...

So. Dear, If u're reading tis...
Pleasee~ You know i love you more than anything.
I will not ignore you, and u do not annoy me :)
Personally I Wish You'll Annoy Me~
Hahax, Cos At least i'd know that you really need me~
and trust me enough to tell me your problems and what you need me to do..
and to seek comfort from me when you're hurt...

I cant be a good boyfriend if you dont give me the chance to be...

Love

2009-12-28T12:21:00.004+08:00

True Love Waits..

So i'll wait, no matter what you wanna do i'll wait and support you all the way.
Huggies, I love you! :)
More than anything i love you
cant wait to see you :(

Hahax ;) I'ma sooo gonna drag u out more often when u reach college 1st year~
Dont stress out ok?
I'm here for you if you need to relax or someone to talk to~
Love you more n more each second~
Dont think too much right now tho :)~
u still have time to really plan for it~
we're gonna have a great future, an amazing daughter and the best relationship ever :)~
so dont worry to much, it's all gonna happen wonderfully~
I'll be beside you all the way, huggies~!

I love you :)~
and you should tell your parents about it too, see if they support it or not,
i mean you still need cash to study till PhD~

-------------------
My own future... ?

Ok so i still dont know what my future hold~
aiks~
I just found out yesterday that Pastor Phil Pringle of Christian City Church
(the church tat sang Great is our God)
is actually a good artist :)
So I'ma considering learning Theology maybe.
My dear's gonna be spending alot of her time studying medicine,
So maybe i shud take up multimedia till i get a degree/diploma then sign up for SOT in Singapore
then maybe it wont seem as long of a wait to be in eternity with my sweet Pricilla~
+ it might show me what God wants me to do for him.
I'm lost, and i dont know my destiny
but i guess this is what i'ma going to do :)
After that, i'll be looking for a job to do till She's done with her studies and found herself a job.
And yes the road is gonna be hard and long~
and we might end up in opposite sides of the world someday.
but It's gonna be worth it...
The day when you're in your white gown, smiling with all happiness next to me in my tux. is worth it... and the sweet kiss which seal our love eternal. It's worth it :)
On top of is the 1st night I'll get to spend with you, where we'll laugh with joy of that wonderful day, where I can just tell you I love you and make everything feel soo perfect.
That's all worth it :)))~

I love you!
and i'm happy you found your goal :DD~

damn

2009-12-26T20:54:00.004+08:00

I dunno where dear dear is today :S
me thinks she went out to bring her aunt n cousin n went out with her family for the whole day, and is tired, probably resting now?
I dunno~
:x Lala~ all i know is i miss her lots..
and i thought alot today..
roar!
normally tat's bad..
but well right now,
what i wanna say is;
1st off I'm sorry about last night/this morning's emotional chat~
and i thought it all through...
None of that matters anymore...
cos... A day without you is a bad day~
so even if something bad happens or something horrible goes wrong..
I'd always love you~
even if your love for me were to fade~
I will still always love you~
I've love you like a friend, love you like a best friend, love you like a sister and love you like cos you're my girlfriend.
you're my everything, nothing that'll happen will ever change that.
I just hope you can forgive me and love me too?
I love you more than anything.
And I will prove it to you :)~ even though i know I dont have to, I want to~
we didnt contacted today, I hope you're ok
I miss you...
and i really love you..
I'm sorry for being selfish too
=x and btw, I'm taking you out on your b-day~
Hope you're still free that day ? :)~
Huggies, we shud soo take a pic then~
Hahax, I just thought of something~
You shud've taken a pic with ''Arisu'' yesterday xD~
hehe~ =x Random~
8+ years.... I guess it's no big deal :)
I love you~~~

My day was boring~
anyway~ Expressing;
Each time i close my eyes i see her...
everytime i hugged my pillow/bolster.. i dreamt of hugging her...
sigh! I miss you soo much~
next time I see her, i'm gonna hug her and keep her under my embrace for as long as possible~
I will no longer back down or show fear..
I mean i've stepped up soo far, might as well go further~
... wait tat sounds scary =x LOL!
what i mean is~ ;) I will no longer fear biting her, kissing her or hugging her in public
at least not as much as before...
cos I'm her bf, and I'm the person who can do all that legally ;D~
and besides she deserves to feel loved... :)
I wish i could show it to her everyday tho... :(

Lovin Christmas

2009-12-25T23:39:00.003+08:00

:)~
Love today!
Spent It With The Greatest Person On Earth~ My Darling Pricilla :)~
hehe~
Location; Kenyalang~
met up with her there around 12:20 :)
then we walked n talked and all tat till 1+
and went up to the theatre for the Seed Of Hope event :)~
talked, laughed, held hands~
talked about how cute the kids were~
and all that~ so yeahhhh =x
Hehe~
Also saw the Children church dance~ :)
Pricilla's sis was also in it~ rofl!
she kept saying tat her sis was using every chance to look at me n her =x
yikes~
Afterwards her sis also walked pass and kinda saw Pricilla n my hands were locked ;X
tralalalala~
that aside, overall a good afternoon~
even the clowns and magician was kinda nice and overly lame of course~
:) but still nice~
it's great to see the church helping out the needy~ :)
Hehe~ ermm ermmmmmmmm~
Pricilla also commented on how Arisu is gonna sing better than the little gal singing on stage xD~
yahhhh~ tat's pretty much it really, due to it being a service for Children mainly~
so we talked alot about our future child ;)~
Hehe~
Great xD~
Forgot to mention~ there were like a bunch of people who saw me n her and kinda 'AHEM' whenever they saw us... =.=! swt! soo childish!

Anyway~~~
after all that~
we went to eat at sugarbun~
alot of people went there too~
kinda awkward~
rofl!
I guess my girlfriend felt more awkward there ;D
what with her losing her bet and all~~~
Hahax, she actually went thru with it and told her leader, 'I LOVE YOU'
:DD~ ROFL~
Ohhhhhhhh~ Pricilla dear dear got me a christmas gift, a keychain~ those 2in1 couple keychain~
:) Love you!!!
Anyway~~~~
We talked and walk and walked
and met her mum, blah blah =x
ignore tat, nothing important~
and so on~ and so forth :X
I dunno wat to say~
I half-hugged her again~
laughed and smiled with her~
talked and held hands :)~
Did i mention she really really looked amazing today ;D~
in her long shirt/halfdress and tights~
xD
wheeeeeeeeeeee~ Wakaka~ i shud thank Andy :B
ahem~
xD
tra la la~
ok~ around 6+ went up and in~
sat talked, and christmas event started~
ermmmmm i dunno wat to say here really~
everything was just amazing~
performance were great~
dancing were awesome~
acting was good~
and there was tis cute little girl tat me n pricilla both agreed on being cute ;D
and tat Arisu shud be like tat too~ Hehe
Dear dear also took my bag and gave me a christmas card, inside it reads.....
Ahem ;x

xD Love you lots, :) my give for her was a bite :S but i din dare to bite her deep :(
sorreh~
ahh! =x I LOVE YOU!
i still kissed her after the event tho ;D~
hahax,
we talked, we held, we cuddled, we spent the most amazing night together :)~
and being close to her just made my love for her grow deeper and deeper,
that I feel sorta empty now we're apart :S
so yeahhh
But i wouldnt trade tis feeling for anything in the world
cos I finally know and found my one true partner in life
and tat's just the best feeling ever...
:) Love you forever~
Hahax, Good job on ur PMR results again~~
& I totally cant wait to start a family with u~ ;)
~YOU ARE PERFECT FOR ME~
~LOVE YOU!~

Christmas

2009-12-25T00:37:00.002+08:00

1st off..
MERRY CHRISTMAS!
THIS CHRISTMAS~ I'M SPENDING IT WITH MY DEAR DEAR~
LOVE YOU SOO MUCH!

Oh~
My Christmas Eve was awesome!
best Christmas Eve ever! Hehe~ xD
Went to the spring to watch an AWESOME MOVIE!
AVATAR!
A movie tat'll make you appreciate nature more~ :)~

Cute couple :B

Awesome Graphics~

GREAT MOVIE~
:)~ Hahax~
to top tat off~
Dear dear was there at the spring~
met up with her while my friends went to look for dinner~
walked with her~
Apparently her family dont think badly of me~ and willing to leave her alone with me~
:) Talked, walked, held hands, laughed
and that's enuf to make the day worth living for~

I LOVE YOU SOO MUCH DEAR!

Today's gonna be an even better day of course xD

ahhh

2009-12-24T13:55:00.002+08:00

BORED!
HELP!
I MISS MY DEAR DEAR!
T_T
More n more n more~
even though christmas is tomorrow~
it's bothering me that it's almost 2010~
by then i might not have as much time with her~
I dunno how to live without her anymore~
T_T

roar!
I hope tomorrow would be a good day.. :(
I love her more than anything~
and i wanna be the most amazing person she's ever met~
but still i dont know why is it so hard for me to be~

ahhhhh~
going to watch Avatar tonight~
tho i'm more in the mood to watch Bodyguards and assassins~
Oh well~
Hope i can go out with my dear next week on her bday~
T_T
ahhhhhhhhhhhhh~
I still feel my relationship with her is really unfair~
there's like nothing i can actually do to get closer to her~
No matter how hard i try~ we're still soo far apart~

8+years is hard to wait~
we've made it thru 1 and a half months..
and I've lost count of how many times we've broke down~
aikz~ gotta keep that up for another 8+years =x
T~T I really how we can make it...
I really really wanna have a future with her~

Expressing

2009-12-22T22:13:00.002+08:00

I deleted my private blog cos well~
I Dont Think I Should Keep A My Expressions And Emotions Private :D

FiRST Of I DONT FEEL WELL~
T_T I'MMMM DISAPPOINTED! AND I WORSE I COULDNT CONTACT MY GIRLFRIEND T_T
And She's Not Online...
Ah~ :) I Forgive you dear~ so dont feel bad :D~
Cant wait for our wedding ;)~ Hehe~

back to why i feel bad

The Operation Andrew Was A BIG BUST!
None of my friends enjoyed it.. .T_T
worse!~ the only people here~ WERE MY FRIENDS...
Anderson's friends all cancelled out...
and my friends all arrived late...
and all of them werent in the mood to do anything when they were here
making everything near impossible
so yah it totally sucked..
=____=!
This GATHERING seriously damaged my friendships/relationships instead of making them better~
ROAR!
:( Bad Day~
Bad Evening~
♥ Dear I MISS YOU! ♥
~♥~I HOPE YOU HAD A BETTER DAY~♥~
I really need you :(

Missing

2009-12-20T12:52:00.004+08:00

WOOOOWWWWWWW~
DEAR! :)
If you actually think back~
we've spent

♥~1 Sunday Morning
♥~1 Monday Afternoon
♥~1 Wednesday Night
♥~1 Saturday Night Together :D~

Love you lots~
This Friday (Christmas) we're gonna be spending the afternoon and night together too~
and on ur Birthday (Thursday) :D~
Hahax~ Thus left Tuesday = d
I guess if we add up the time we meet on saturdays like yesterday it'd add up to 1 day~
:D
Hahax~
After this month~
We'll be considered Friends for almost 2 years~
Couple for almost 2months~ & DATING FOR ONE WEEK! xD~

LOL! the last one sounds lame~
But Overall Still AWESOME~

Love You Lots :)~
And Whatever Problems You're Facing; You Know I'm Here For You~
As A Friend, A Boyfriend & As A Follower Of God :D~
So Huggies :) JiaYou~ Love You Lots!
Dont Give Up~
~P.S.~
You're sooooo beautiful! ♥ and u can no longer call me blind! roar!
Muackz! XOXO~

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Hahax~
that aside~
I got to see dear dear in heels yesterday XD~
:) Awesome~! Seriously! You Should Be Feminine Once In A While :D~
You Dont Look As Bad As You Think~

Ermmm.. Yesterday church we had a guest speaker~
Forgot his chinese name.. so just gonna call him Uncle Jimmy~
Pai Kia~ Use To Sell Drug de~ And Ex-Dai Lou Of Some Big Gangsta Group~
Now he's a helper?/ teacher? of a bible school~
so yeahhhhhhh~
Nothing interesting on that really...
cept the drug thing which reminded me of my classmates who actually sell those stuff...
but I'm already outta school n dont have contact with them~ oh well~
ermmmmmm~ yeah nothing much really~

Oh oh! I Got To Scare My Girlfriend :D~
Yes! xD I Can Scare Her! :X RANDOM
Oh oh! Francis look soo cute yesterday too~
xD~ LOL! In the Santa Claus Competition I Mean~
The Female Santa look cute too~
She almost fell down in her Heels! =x
And I think that pissed her off cos she throw the candy like grenades in a battlefield =x
Nicole & Vivian Kena hit xD~ Wahaha~
:x Ahem~

Yeahh~ Nothing much~
This Morning... shortest service ever! Finished at 10
Cos Pastor George is going outta Kuching~
so yeah~
And tonight's speaker would be Uncle Jimmy again =x~
ermmmmmmm~ nothing much really~
Oh! This morning there was a wedding
I din attend.. but the bride n groom was there during service :)~
Soooo Sweet~ Soooo Young (well older than me of course = d)
:D~ Hahax~ Reminded me of how I cant wait to see dear dear in her wedding gown~
Hehe~
♥ Love You Dear! ♥

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Speaking of which I had a dream about us getting married too ;)
Hehe~ Tell you when you're online on msn~♥~♥~♥~♥
Huggies! :)~

Forever~

2009-12-17T23:45:00.002+08:00

I LOVE YOU DEAR, FOREVER AND EVER :)~
Hahaz~ :D~ I LOVE PRICILLA! AND I JUST WANNA SHOUT IT OUT LOUD! =x

ahem!
er.. er.......... er...............~
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm~
AH!
Got My Sijil Berhenti Sekolah (End Of Schooling Certificate) today!
YES! OFFICIALLY OUTTA HIGH SCHOOL~

Though....... it says.... I got A for Discipline :)~
but the rest all low~
Attendance..... D! D - The Lowest Grade
Cooperativeness..... C!

If i continued on I'd sound like a bad student.. therefore i wont~
LOL!

Gawd! I MISS YOU DEAR!
T_T

Cant wait to see you tis Sat~~

LOVE YA LOTS! Huggies! :D~ XOXO!

That's all~

TODAY!

2009-12-14T22:52:00.002+08:00

Awesome awesome awesome day~
:)~
went out with pricilla to watch ninja assassin yay!
UNFORTUNATELY, MBO CAME OUT WITH THE NEW RULE THAT.. THEY'D FOLLOW THE LAW... =_=! 18SG.. means me n her cant enter! =.=! ROAR! WTF~ Should've went to Star Cineplex...
but oh well~

Ended up with The Storm Warriors 2/The Storm Riders 2.... Feng Yun~

Erm... watching it.. made me prefer the cartoon version~ =x
Dear, I'll lend it to you next time cos it's more meaningful than this one~ LOL!

Hahax~ :)~ Anyway good movie... had a great time with her ;D~

I LOVE YOU DEAR!

6.2/10 for me on the movie.... the other movie trailers look better tho....

i.e. Bodyguards n assassins

Most likely go Star to watch.. dear wanna go? :D~

Wheeee had my hands around her ;D~ =x Love Love Love~
ah well...
Not gonna share anymore on that ;x
Afterwards we went to eat at sugarbun~ ;D~ She's soo ADORABLE! Even when she's eating xD
Hehe, Love you! =_=! Tho It's still feels wrong i din pay ur share =_=!
Then we walked talked sat talked~ from clothes to makeup to marriage to children xD~ =x
then i saw Annie, Shi Siew & Tau Xin... =.=! they din talked to me of course~ just smiled n laughed... rofl..... (annie messaging me now... ANNOYING =.=! not replying her =x) ermm ermm... then saw Vui Siang with his friends... he waved at me and laughed... =_=!

blah blah blah moving on...
not long later it was time to go...
she went home.. i went home...
I then msg-ed hanjing to see him Soon's dinner started yet?
it hadnt so I went along...

Me, Hanjing, Jun Yong, Aaron liew.. all the way to Soon's kopitiam~~ wow! it's like renting a whole kopitiam just for us~ LOL! then Kian Boon and Siau Yen came~
Turns out that Vui Siang got invited too... but he din go.. cos he had a Primary School Reunion at the spring.. thus.. the reason why I saw him there ~ LOL!

It was 8+ when we were done eating.. then suddenly we decided to go Karaoke ~
wheeeeeeeeee~ OMG! the mineral water cost like 2ringgit... & YOU MUST BUY A DRINK... =.=!
annoying much?
anyway... the song that I DID sang was...

Ca Jian Er Guo - Li Sheng Jie
Wei Ni Xie Shi - Wu Ke Qun
You Are Not Alone - Micheal Jackson *Aaron Liew wanted a partner.. was forced.. bopian*
Huo Cai Tian Tang - Xiong Tian Ping (Loved tis ROFL! xD)
IT'S MY LIFE - Bon Jovi ~ :3

wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~ blah blah blah finished around 10:30
Just got home not long ago....
Kinda satisfied.. tho.. I CANT SING! T_T
anyway... Great Day!

DEAR! I MISS YOU LOTS!
LOVING YOU MORE N MORE :)~

Jay Koopman~ ;D

2009-12-12T23:33:00.003+08:00

Wheeeeeeeeeeeee AWESOME SERVICE!

I cried... well abit :)~
He ROCKED!
Anyway~
Today brought Alyn n Jason to church~ LOL!
:)~ so yeah praise the lord that i got to bring them to church~
even tho my mum's car broke down half way.... also praise the lord that she got home safely ^_^

Great job to the people who did the video announcement~
tho Jamie's hair.. well... din fit her to me.... Hahax~
That aside, cant wait for next week's testimony :)~

Ahaha~
Ok blah blah blah so on so on~
xD
Pastor Jay Koopman~ He is handsome for one ;x~
but he does seem rather old~
I hope god bless him with the children he want soo badly~ he'd make such an awesome father~ xD
He talked about how God love us even when we didnt do anything...
As He loved Jesus when Jesus first started serving...

When Jesus was Baptized by John the Baptist
God said through him to Jesus; "This Is My Beloved Son, Of Whom I Am Pleased"

:)~
So yeah God loved all of us!
Then Pastor.Jay started talking about his life and background..

And it was just really really sad.. how his life had gone.. :(~
and how God blessed him in the end... but still sad that his mum passed away~
ah~
Totally awesome!

PS. I immediately 'swt' when he said tat he mum dated a Suicidal... who died with his head burst open... :X

AND I CANT BELIEVE SOMEONE LAUGHED! AHEM!

Anyway~~~
I feel sorry for him at some point and i guess i love the way god has blessed him :)~
God is great! xD~

And right now...
Amongst everything he preached...
:) Forgiveness and everything else... Lead me to thinking that..

I shud be grateful of what i have now... :)~
and well yeah!
so.. Dear.... I LOVE YOU~

so yeah~
I have no fears, no regrets, no hesitation ~ and total love for her ^_^

wish

2009-12-12T09:32:00.003+08:00

Dear,

I wish you would tell me what's wrong...
I wish you would tell me your fears..
I wish you would tell me how you felt when i held you near..
I hope none of this effects this relationship..
I love you more than anything... deeper than anything...
& regardless of anything, I will always love you.
Among everything that would happened. It doesnt matter..
Because in the end i just want you to be happy.
If i come out short on this and receive more pain than i bargained for..
It's fine, as long as you're happy. It might take a long while before I actually feel better.
But, I love you and for that I will support every decision you make...
I'm just sorry that I'm not strong enough to trust you more..
In spite of all that tho, I'd still try my best to give you the best..
Because I love you unconditionally and without limit.
I love you... & If it's true that my love is all that you need to go on...
then tell me once again... and i will let go of all my doubts and negative emotions.
cos i know it doesnt help this relationship...
In spite of the distance or how unfair it feels that I seldom even get to see or meet you...
I will not have any fears if you just told me again that you love me...
Your love is all i need...
I Miss You & LOVE YOU FOREVER!

& I Cant wait to see you again :)~
Though I wish we had more time together, being with you even for a second is enough to make me love you more and more.

Please dont doubt this relationship like i am... I love you, and i really dont want to lose you in anyway, hugs, i love you and i mean it from the deepest depth of my heart... I LOVE YOU~

whee

2009-12-09T23:44:00.003+08:00

today was a promising day~

the night's party was a success~

ROFL~
;D My friends mainly really just eat electricity~

so yeah~~~
2Laptop 1PC.... 4Player PS2..... enuf to keep everyone bz...
while I kept myself bz with her~~ :D

I LOVE YOU DEAR~~

I got to kiss her tonight!
Ah! she's the first gal i kissed.....
;D YAY! I have the courage to actually kiss her!
I dunno how she felt.... and she wont tell me.... eik!
=x I hope she doesnt think i'm pushing it this relationship too fast or anything...
ah~!
AH!~
I'm sooo high right now~~~
Hahax~

Tat's all i'ma gonna say really......

Speechless..

Wonderful Night

Love her more n more!!!~

What's today?

2009-12-07T22:40:00.004+08:00

So....
I miss my darling~ a wholeeeeeeee lot today~
She's bz being nice to her cousins and so couldnt spent the day chatting with me~
Sad.. but still ok..
Cos I'd get to see her this wed ;D~
TauFeng said.. if we might get lost~ might as well go earlier.. so he's coming over like around 4+~
ROFL~
Good too.. then Eric & Siang Yong and come over n help set up the com~
while Me,Feng n Loon go pick her up~
Everyone else would be arriving at the starting time of 7pm~
I hope it'd be a great party~
Hehe~

My day today~
really dull
woke up around 10...
Hanjing called me for dota around 11
played till 2....
ate lunch, bathed, listened to song, slept & study abit...
ermmm.... yeah~

During dinner..
My mum told me what she read on the newspaper today~
It sounded cool~
ermmm 2people were hit by a car Inside a shopping mall ;D~
see see;~

ermmm.... I'd just copy the news and paste it here;

KOTA BARU: Two shoppers were killed after a runaway car in an open air parking lot of a mall smashed through a retaining wall before plunging down three stories onto an escalator.

Another shopper was seriously injured in the freak accident that occurred at 4.45pm when the mall in Jalan Hamzah was packed with weekend patrons.

Nurain Said, who was driving the car when it plunged, miraculously survived the 54m fall.

Sources from; TheStar.com

LOL and to think after dinner
I went to watch final destination 4 on PPStream..
but couldnt finish it.. as hanjing called me for dota... again~
so yeah... played till 9+
bathed...
Then....
SHE CALLED! AH!
LOVE YOU! ;D~
I miss her voice soooooo much!
I miss the way you look~
I miss the way you are~
=x ok~ I'm totally over-reacting~ but still~ LOVE YOU!

I guess i shud sleep now... final paper tomorrow...
DO YOU HEAR ME! FINAL PAPER!! :DDDD~
AFTER TOMORROW~ I'M NO LONGER A HIGH SCHOOLER!
WAKAKAKA! =x

Then Wed Party~~~ Wheeeeeeeee~
Cant wait ;D~
I guess i might go straighten my hair thurs or something..
Anyway~ Nothing else~
Hehe~
That's It~
PEACE N LOVE EVERYONE! ;DD~

The past days

2009-12-06T23:52:00.002+08:00

The passed few days were kinda tough I must admit...
I didnt get to see her for more than a week now...
and i just miss her alot..
but God's will are not without purpose...
He kinda showed me and her too...
How being connected even when we're far away~
is better than not being able to communicate at all~
;)
so yeah~
hugs- Love you lots dear~
God is merciful~ cos i'd get to see her tis wed ;DD~ YAY!

+ + +~ Next week saturday~ Pastor. Jay Koopman coming to Kuching~ He looks cool~
cant wait to meet him~ ;D~

on top of that~ After Tuesday~~
I'm OFFICIALLY OUTTA HIGH SCHOOL! YAY!

PARTY PARTY ALL THE WAY TO CNY! ;D~

Lately I've been stuck on a game called Lord Of Dragons.. which is kinda lame xD

http://dragon-e1.i1play.com

check it out ^_^ It's free to play and is a web browser game... Hahax

Nothing much really...

I just miss her alot lately that's all...

Church preaching for last sat was on "Zi Wo Xing Xiang" ermmmm.... Self.. ermm ermm.. I dunon how to say it in english~
It's how you look at yourself~
and the thing is..
Since God's son Jesus Christ... gave his life so we could have a new life..
a new confidence, a new mindset... reborn again totally anew~
blah blah blah yeah~~

=x
So Dear~
Stop Being So Concerned About How You Look...
Cos You Look Perfect To Me... and to God...
You look wayyy better than a whole lot of people already~
dont give in to what others say ;D~
Cos I LOVE YOU!

--Hugs--

anniversary

2009-12-03T22:28:00.002+08:00

It's one day late..
but who really cares...
Dear...
Happy Anniversary!
:) The 1 month I've spent with you .... was... like heaven on earth
I've never loved anyone like I love you..
Hugs~ I'll give you the best of everything :D
ah~~~ Love You Dear~ Now And Forever ^_^
Nothing Can Ever Tear Us Apart~
Lovin You Always, More And More Each Day~
Missing You Too...
ah~~~
:D
1MONTH! CAN YOU BELIEVE IT! :DDD~
Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee~
I'm really really happy to be in this relationship...
Thank You...
For Everything..
For Being Everything..
For Your Love..
:) I Cant Ask For Anything Better Than This Relationship I Have Right Here..
~!~XOXO~!~
:) LoVe YoU FoReVeR~

Dear ~

2009-12-01T19:08:00.002+08:00

all i think about her..
all i dream about it her...
all i want is her!
most of these are gonna sound abit wrong but i dont really care....
I Want You!
I Wanna Be With You~
I Wanna Hug You
I Wanna Kiss You
I Wanna Touch You
I Wanna Marry You
I Wanna Be Right There Next To You
I Wanna Sleep With You
Bathe With You, Dance With You, Runaway With You

But All I NEED Is Your Love
So dear,
Please bear with me....
I know sometimes our time might get boring..
and sometimes we might get frustrated..
and days we might just not see each other...
But I Love You..
More Than Anything...
We might not get many chances to see each other...
but i hope the times we that we do are enough to keep you with me..
I will be a better boyfriend to you :)
I will be there right next to you if you just tell me that you want me to be...
I'd sacrifice everything for you...
I love you...
So please as time pass by each day...
Remember that I love you more than anything...
deeper than anything... :D~
Ah I Love You!
I cant wait to see you~
^_^ A couple more years and we can be together forever! :D
Wait With Me? ~

Oh My Friend

2009-11-30T22:57:00.002+08:00

Today
I went
To Watch
~NEW MOON~

With Hanjing, Taufeng... & Jason..
Taufeng invited Jason.. argh he was soo annoying during the movie..
ignoring tat..
:) The Movie was nice
I Like...

ALICE & JASPER~ OF COURSE

JANE

LAURENT

I KNOW A LOT OF PEOPLE WENT TO WATCH THIS ONE COS OF "JACOB"
BLUEK~
He's everything i distaste.... A werewolf...
The wolf form rocks~ dont get me wrong~
I just dont like werewolves~
Vampires are wayyy Cooler & more Charismatic.. ^_^
Wolves are just Wild and Fun... Bluek~ Not Serious One! =x ROFL~

Anyway it's still a Vampiric Action Romance Movie...
so.. yeah..
Felt kinda off when I was there with my friends only..
Cant wait to watch a movie with Her someday...
..erm... yeah`
so being a romance movie~~~ It kinda made me miss pricilla more and more...
what with the.............

so ermm yeah~~~
=x sigh! I miss you dear..

anyway after that we went to a cyber
and played 2 rounds of dota before returning home..
kinda of a dull day...
+side..
I Love my girlfriend more and more each second.. :)
I'm happy tat her day was more fun than mine :D~
~One day I'll give you the most thrilling and breathtaking day out of your life~
Love You!

NEW MOON?
8/10~
Suprisingly It's Better Than The 1st One!
And WAKAKA To All The Werewolf fans...
cos I still support the vampires~
I mean why would ppl pick a werewolf over a vampire?
roar~
=x ignore tat..

Dear!
I wanna see you! Help!
T_T
Missing you lots~

Hopeless Romantics

2009-11-30T01:42:00.002+08:00

NO FEELING AS DEEP, NO CRAVINGS AS BIG~

TRUE LOVE FOREVER ;)
IN YOUR ARMS I WISH TO SLEEP~

-REIJI x ARISU-
~ A LOVE STORY ~

Storytime~

2009-11-29T22:39:00.005+08:00

Guess what?
Going back to story-play writing ;)~
Dear wanna try with me? xD
Create a character and write the story out~
last i check ur character was still locked in a prison cell~ =x~

My Story:
ermmm, let's just say my previous character got killed by wolves :D~ cos he was boring anyway~
=x new guy:~
(seriously! I miss roleplaying! T_T)

His name is~
.:Reiji Takashima:.

Reiji peacefully sleeping.. when...
*~Handphone rings~*
He answered his phone... 'Hello...?'
'Reiji? Where Are You Man? Do You Know What Time It Is?'
his friend questioned
'ah... ermm... ' *checks his alarm clock*
O_O! 'Oh! Crap! I'm Late~'
'Dude it's the first day of class and you're late!' his friend commented
Reiji quickens his pace get dressed and so on~
'Yeah I Know~ Dont Remind Me~ I'll meet you when i get there aiight?'
'Whatever Man, Just Make Sure You Get Here Before The Assembly Starts~'
*hangs up his phone*
After Getting Ready, Reiji dashed outta his house~ Towards His New College...

(Reiji is a student at his new college. He wasnt so great it schoolwork nor that hardworking either when he was in highschool. It's a miracle he got into college. He's cunning and creative. He loves to draw, hang out and if possible just have fun for the rest of his life. But his life is about have a very unexpected twist...)

Reiji got to his new school right on time, his friend was like congratulating him for being right on time for the 1st day

Name: Kaze 'Wind' Shinamora
(He's Reiji's bestfriend ever since highschool, another slacker but unlike Reiji~
Kaze comes from a rich family background)

School, classes... so on...
All too familiar and boring to Reiji~ whom spent his time in class~
writing poems and drawing...
while his friend Kaze just sleeps everything off~
*School Bell Rings*
5mins b4 the bell rang ; Kaze said to Reiji...
'cya dude, catch u online later ;)~'
And dashed off after the bell rang..
hmmm... sometimes i wonder why we're friends~
After packing up his stuff... Reiji walked outta the school
Upon walking outta the school gate however..
*Bump~*

A high school girl bumped into Reiji~
which scattered all his artwork all over the walkway~
He was annoyed for awhile and almost shouted at the poor girl..
but.. he kept his cool.. and held back his anger... plus the girl kept apologizing bowing her head repeatedly..
'Sorry Sorry Sorry~'
'It's alright~' Reiji replied, slowing picking up his stuff
'erm.. ah!' the girl quickly helps him~
'I'm really sorry~' she continued
'Sometimes I dont see where I'm going and ah! sorry, I'll make it up to you~'
'It's alright~erm.. I got to go... cya, next time see where you're walking' Reiji replied

'Ah wait~ what's your name?' The girl asked..
o_O 'My name?... erm.. Takashima, Reiji~'
'Reiji... I'm... Kuroshi, Arisu'
'ermm ok, cya around Arisu' Reiji said
'erm...bye...' she replied shyly
Reiji dashed off...
Arisu continued her own way home.. then 'hmm?' she found one of Reiji's artwork on the floor... it kind of stole her heart... and remembered how cute Reiji actually looked... she shook off the feeling after a few seconds... and decided to meet him again the same time tomorrow to return the artwork she found..

Finally home~
Reiji stretches his hands~ left all his artwork on the table..
bathe... *~Handphone Text-Ring~*
'Hey Dude Get Online Now You're Already 5mins late! We've Got A Game Remember?'

Reiji got on his laptop computer and got online to meet up with Kaze in an online game. After gaming, He decided that he was too lazy to cook.. and went out to find something to eat......

(End Of Reiji's Part 1)
Most of The Story In This Post Will Be Located At;

Reiji's Side

Roar

2009-11-28T22:36:00.002+08:00

Spend The Evening With Her~
Kinda Dull~ Oh Well~
Not gonna get into details =x

SHE GOT INTO SINGING COMPETITION FINALS! :D~
CONGRATS~ I'll SUPPORT YOU ALL THE WAY~
JUST HAVE FAITH ^_^ K?
LOVE YOU PRICILLA! :D

hmmmm~
I know this sounds mean~
But the dude that's trying to chase her kinda shitty~
:x i dislike him more n more each day
argh~ and it's wrong to Hate =.=!
roar!
but really....
:( he sux~ He's annoying her which also annoys me~
He's acting like He cares n being as though its wrong for her to be with me...
He doesnt even know the hardship me n her been through to get where we are today!
that is why it's soo lame...

IGNORING THAT....

MORE BAD NEWS...
SHE CANT GO TOMORROW...

........
ah~
I cant say i'm not disappointed cos... I seriously am!
T_T but.... nvm... it'll be fine..... I'll be fine...
1more week isnt long.....
it isnt long...
ahh wat kinda bf am i if i cant even go out with my gf...
I feel sooo useless again... :\
I wanna do anything n everything for her,
so she doesnt need to worry anymore & just be happy...
even then...
everything doesnt go as planned de~
roar!

THAT ASIDE

Christmas....
The day of Jesus's birth...
A blessed day...
And Gonna Be An Amazing Day...
That's Where Most Of My Hope Lies...
Satan Has No Power On That Day...
So There'll Be Nothing That Can Destroy Or Corrupt This Relationship!
Nor Is There Gonna Be Anyone Stealing Her Away~ Except Me~
So... With Wat I Have... I Hold On For This One Sparkle Of Hope...
Cos' this relationship is just hard....
And I'm trying my very best to make it the best ever...
I just hope i can succeed....
If Now Today, Tomorrow, Next Week Or The Week After...
At Least On The Day Christ Was Borned....
I No Longer Have Any Wishes Or Cravings Or Wantings....
Cept Just To Be With Her & Have A Blessed & Everlasting Relationship With Her...
So, Daddy God, Please... Grant Me This One Wish...
It's All I Want.... & All I Ask For....
You Know I'll Serve You, My Lord & My Loyalty Will Never Change~
I'd Do Whatever You Ask Me To...
So Please...
Please....
I Pray, I Wish, I Beg....
Please... Bless This Relationship....

情人

2009-11-28T01:07:00.014+08:00

♥ 只要有你 ♥
♥ 每一天都是情人节 ♥

Dear ♥ Pricilla ♥ ,

I Love You More Than Anything,
I'll Never Leave You Or Hurt You.
My Love For You Is Deeper Than Anything.
I'll Remain Faithful Forever.
Remember Back When We Were Just Friends;
When You Were Down,
I Always Try To Cheer You Up?
Or The Way We Kiss n Make Up After We Argue with each other?
None Of Which Ever Lasted Longer Than A Day?
It's all Because My Love For You Is Deep..
It Always Have Been...
I'll always care for you~
I'll always be here for you~
So Let's Face This Together~
Because You And I Both Know Nothing Can Break This Bond
This Relationship Full Of Hope..
~I Love You~
~Always Have~
~Always Will~
What Ever Happens~ We're In This Together~
So Which This Happiness & Amazing Feeling Last~
Let's Make Use Of It The Best We Can ;)~
I'll Make You Feel Feelings You Never Knew Existed~
I'll Make You Blush Like You Never Knew You Could~
I'll Give You The Best Time Of Your Life~
So Just Take My Hand~
And Follow Me~
You'll Never Regret It~
This I Promise You~
;)

~Love You Always~

marry me

2009-11-26T23:29:00.001+08:00

Today I played The Sims 3~
A WHOLE LOT MORE AWESOME THAN SIMS 2! OMG! IT'S FUN~
Woke At 9 played till 11++~

then online chat with her!!! ahhh! I L0V3 Y0U!

Then Dota With The Gang

~(Whom 90% are now my brothers on fb xD)~

& chat with her till now
I love her more n more each passing second~
she just means soo much to me!
nothing can break tis relationship~
:D so yeah! I'm happy~

A Bump Is Gone From The Relationship Too~
Which is AWESOME!

Seriously!
Only GOOD Will Come From This Sweet Yet Dark Combination~!
From What Quintus Think; He Said That;
"It's because of all the hardships me n her had gone through that's why we're happily together now"
He's soo weird! =x
but what he says is true~ ^_^
:D~ ahhhh~
I'm really really thankful for tis relationship!
I'm never been sooo happy in my whole entire life!

I'm DEEPLY IN LOVE WITH YOU!
:D AND I WANNA BE WITH YOU FOREVER!!!!

WE'RE OFFICIALLY TOGETHER
ON FACEBOOK

tra la la la la~~~~
I'm just totally in Cloud 13 & Going higher~~~~
:DDD~

CONTAGIOUS BY AVRIL LAVIGNE
EXPLAINS HOW I FEEL COMPLETLELY~

"It's so contagious
I cannot get it out of my mind
It's so outrageous
You make me feel so high
All the time"

someday~

2009-11-26T00:25:00.003+08:00

PINK PINK MASQUERADE
SUG'S NEWEST SINGLE'S MV IS FINALLY OUT~
AND I LOVE IT LOTS~
LOVE TAKERU'S FANGS! AND THE WHOLE GROUP'S OUTFITS

wheeeeeeeeee~
Darling just got her com fixed n hp reloaded!
and I dont have exams for the next 5days :D~
I'm just soo happy!! xD
~~~I love you~~~
~hehe~
;) Life Cant Get Any Better Than This~
even tho i have a feeling it will~
:DD~ wheeeeeeeee~
ah! I'm Love Drunk =x

aha~Life Rox~
so lately~
been dota-ing with the usual gang~
they call it 'releasing stress' from spm
mehh~ kinda fun~
played the fan-made edited map~ OMGmode
where~ all heroes have random skills~
kinda lame~ but it's funny ^_^
ermmm yeah~~~

Exams been really tough~
but i'm pulling through............with her support xD
and the great times i get to spend with my friends~
like tis afternoon where they all came over~
take loud, played games, blah blah~
lol~ Hanjing maxed his car woofer and kinda shook the entire neighborhood =x
I think everyone tat lives near here think i'm some kinda gangster~
wat with 3cars full of students all walk like pai kia de~
1 smoker also~ =.=!
ahaha~ but still love them all~~~
wonder if there'll ever be chances to hangout with them like this again in the future~
heh~

hmmmm~
~I really love her~
~More n More n More~
~She's just everything i've ever wished for~
~I'm gonna do my best in this relationship~
~I hope it's enough to keep it wonderful~
~I really just dunno what to say~
~You just means so so sooo much to me!~
~And I'm just sooo thankful for your love, trust, faithfulness, randomness xD~
Words Cant Describe How Much You Mean To Me

That's it~

Lovin Life

2009-11-22T21:59:00.004+08:00

Today is a day i would not trade away for anything ^_^

Spent the whole morning with her~
regardless of what others are thinking, wondering & know.. :)
lolx~
I'ma guessing everyone know already at some point~ hehe~ ah well~
:)
sat with her during service
doodled together, chatted, joked, laughed
haha~ and the sermons was kinda fitting for the mood too =x

"要常常喜乐，这表明神愿意我们喜乐。而忧愁、烦恼、苦闷都不是神的旨意，这不在乎外面的情形如何，只要靠主就能喜乐。"

说真的, 有了她我天天能喜乐~ 所以主啊! 求你保守我和她个关系~
^.^ 这爱的关系是我一身最美好的祝福~
谢谢你主耶稣让我能认识到贝恩~ 我对你的感谢是没字可表达的~
真的很感谢能和她一起~ ^_^

早上, 担我和她是让我感觉一中高兴和喜乐我不成感觉过的...
我真的爱上她了... 我希望这爱情能永远的成长~
主耶稣, 我相信你~ 我不在乎别人对我的看法~
因为我自己知道你是我唯一的帮助和避难所~~

我不在会担心我生命的一切, 因为我知道你永远爱者我! haha~

ok~ back to my blog post... ahem~
hehe~
Love the day~
after service i spent time with her listening to her practice for her singing competition~
she has a very very amazing voice... but she was nervous~
so i did my best to calm her down (if you wana know how i did it, ask me! )~
basically we talked for hours n hours through out the morning~
I love spending time with her ^_^~
sadly she cant online n read this post =x

ah~ i just love her alot :)~
everything just feels soo perfect when i'm with her~ even tho tat sounds very dramatic~
=x hehe~ nothing can match the time i spent with her this morning~
ah~ speechless~ hehe~
I guess shud tell our leaders soon or something... but i think they already know something is up~
with the way me n her hang out and seem close =x

ah~
ignoring tat~ ^_^ I feel sorry for Garry.... cos he went to church around 1+ cos he tot he would be on time for the singing competition not knowing tat it was over then...
he was obviously pissed and i guess a lil disappointed :\ ermm wat am i suppose to say?
ah well~
aside from tat~
I know where her house is now! but it's really really far~ heh =x
hmmmm~ ah~
gotta wait another week b4 i can see her again~ heh~
^_^ but i dont mind anymore~

Being an emotional person makes me stronger person~
cos God seems to mould me in soo many ways :)~
I didnt notice till today~ xD
heh~ Maths exam tomorrow~
I shud sleep~ Good night all ^_^

Today~

2009-11-16T22:50:00.005+08:00

boooooooooommmmmmmmmmmm~~~
went to catch 2012 tis morning~ *breaks* before i get into that tho...
:D
hehe,
so yeah!
Woke tis morning, searched for food, left her a 'good morning' sms...
got online.. got invited to go out..
got ready and went out :d
on the way she finally replied my msg~
turned out she slept in... ahhh~
due to having a very very sweet dream ;)~
heh..
msg with her till reached the cinema
oh yeah.. I went with Feng & Jing... got stuck with Feng's Sister also.. =.=!
then took tix from Annie and annie's friend... :|
so yeah~
3 guys 3 gals ... lol but of course just enjoyed the movie
so now review

2012~
Isnt tat great really =x dunno why people say it's like "SoOo Aw3sOmE"
when it's just another end of the world movie, some critics say it's just a more ADVANCED version of Noah's Ark.. which may be true...
aside from Great graphics... ok characters... there's nothing much~
I love Charlie the dude who always talks about the end of the world on the radio
as he died witnessing the eruption of a hotzone :)~

me n hanjing agreed tat if we were him, we'd stand there and watch the beautiful fire too.. as running would seem useless

anyway the whole movie gets a 7/10 for me...
I've just watched too much end of the world movie.. and is still not really there for me

ermm throughout the movie, will all that family loving and all tat... kinda made me miss her :(
It just made me felt like.... if the end of the world is near... i wont care much... as long as I get to spent my last moments with u... I wont care :)~ at least I'd die happy instead of die worrying about surviving~

so yeah...
after it... went out... me feng n jing went to eat and drink at sugarbun while those 3 gals went to check out the new K-box ontop of mbo awhile... mehh~
we ate n wait..went home afterwards

smsing with her continued and continued and continued till now...
:)
I wanna talk about the things we smsed... but it seems inappropriate to post ;)~
so i'll just keep them to myself
hehe~
that is all...

A response to your dream ;)
:D~

Marry me!

2009-11-15T16:02:00.003+08:00

ah!

My Love For Her Deepens :)~

hehe~
I feel like i've spent the last 2days in heaven xDD~
tat few moments with her after church service during saturday night :)~
and the entire morning in church this morning :)~

really happy~
words cant express the joy i feel :'D~
ah! I Love You!!!

Saturday~
Concert Party with Rev. Henry Chong (張漢林) and Bro.Raymond Looi (雷聖雄)~ =X

hehe...cool~
雷聖雄~ still maintain his amazing voice :DDD~
I actually felt like buying their compilation album.. but 30ringgit is a lil much for me right now =x~
ah well~
really nice... xD all i learnt tat night tho was....
God Protects And Takes Care Of All Of Us~
That's why we're here today~
and seriously! being here today~
having the chance to be with her.. ;)~
really is total blessing~

ahh~
passed her the artwork~
service start and ended
group supper :)~
singing jamie b-day song =x
went down..
chatted with Her awhile~
those couple of minutes.... were amazing :)~
I love you soo much :D~

ahh~ I told her "i love you..."
and she said; "I love you too..."
that sentence. just... Ah! T.T
Speechless~
it just made my week of waiting worth it.. :D~
Great Music, Great Food, Great Cell Group, Great Friends, Great Sms-ing, Great Moment With Her, Great Night! xD

hehe... then then..
on the way home i msg with her~ hehe.. she was tired.. but she stilled stay up till 1 b4 sleeping =x
anyway on the van i had a slight headache...
uhh i think, texing after eating, with LOUD praise n worship song turned on in a bumpy van ride made it happened =x~ roar! Sheng Yuan fault for driving soo fast =x
LOL!

xD msg with her till 11+ she said she's going on Sunday~
tat just.... really got me excited~
cos i couldnt wait to see her again!
:D Thank God! I got to see her again!

Sunday!
msg her in the morning!
but no response.. cos her house no signal~
hehe~
went to church sat with her~
=x awkward start like always....

but not long later =x
i dunno... intimacy kinda built up ;)~
lol INTIMACY tat sounds kinda wrong but yeah~

anyway we kinda wrote to each other.. cos talking would be wrong in church =x~!
rofl~ ahh! but i love her more n more :D
being right next to her just feels really great....
:') I cant wait for next week...but i will~
I love you!!!

hehe~
ermm oh! morning was still the Rev. Henry Chong (張漢林) and Bro.Raymond Looi (雷聖雄)~
which was the same as the night before xD

so yeah....
after the service... me n her talked for awhile then she got on the van to return home.. awww~

but still yeah~
i dont mind.. =x although a part of me wanted her to stayy~~~
I'm kinda glad she didnt...
cos she got home and went to take a nap... she's tired.. i know :D~
hehe..
plus if she was with me in eng service.. i wouldnt had been able to connect with God..
and well it's a Sunday we're suppose to connect with God..
plus it was a Holy Communion sunday x.X!
so yeah...
I thank God for letting me be with her for the morning~ :D
and admited my sins... ate his body and drank his blood...
feeling more alive... :)
so long story short...

I spent my morning with Her, my noon with God, afternoon to myself..
~My Life Is Soo Balanced Right Now :D~

and for what i'm doing tonight? well we'll see :)
I'd most likely post again later...

and if you still dont know...
I LOVE YOU DEEPLY!
let's make this last forever! =D

:)

2009-11-13T18:00:00.002+08:00

~ PRICILLA! I LOVE YOU ~
~and nothing can change that :)~
~Please stay with me~

hmmm

2009-11-12T23:31:00.005+08:00

jamie said;
"i somehow knew u and *** would get tgt"

yating jie also said;
"I already knew it. My guess is *** and u said impossible but I knew it would be true"

x___X
so..... is my relationship with her soo predictable? o.O

OMG!
:DDD~
hahax~ actually.. i dont know anymore~
ah! they probably think we'd make a wonderful couple~
and we do ;)~
we're probably gonna be the best couple in history!
hehe~ xD i dunno wat more to say~
argh!
I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!
and I'm not afraid to show it :)~
Let's Make This Last Forever :DDD~
hehe~

This relationship has IMPERFECT PERFECTION written all over it! xD
:D~ love u always n forever n ever!
God Bless This Relationship! :DDD~

You mean sooo soo soooo much to me!
T.T
to think we met a year ago as strangers, friends, churchmates, bestfriend, closefriend~
hehe~ loving u more n more each second!

cant wait to see you darling!
xD hehe~ you make me go crazy!!! :x
hugs! xoxoxoxoxo!
:)~ every second not being close to you makes me miss you more n more~
I cant wait to see you again~~~
and i mean it....
all of it...
~.:'..:'~!:!I LOVE YOU!:!~':..':.~

:D

2009-11-12T22:30:00.003+08:00

You mean soo much tome...
You're everything to me~
wo yong yuan ai zhe ni~
You the best thing to have ever happened in my life~
I love you deeply~
Thank you for being soo understanding~
I'll do everything i can to make our love last ;)~
I miss you a lot right now~
but our relationship would be one that would surpass any other~
cos we'll last forever!
I'm always here for you no matter what!
You mean sooo much to me as a friend, a girlfriend, a close-friend~
you're everything I ever wanted/needed
and I'm just sooo happy to have you right here with me
for our happy ever after~
I'll try my best to endure the time we spend apart~
I love you!
no matter what happens i'll always love you~
you're my dream come true :)~
xoxo~
love you always and forever!
J'et Aime!
Ti Amo!
Aishiteru!
wo ai ni!
:))~
ahhhhhhhhhhhhh~
:D I LOVE YOU!?!?!?!
AND I MISS YOU!!!!!
I've never felt more alive!
it's been sooo long since i last felt anything.....
so you really mean a whole lot to me...
you give me meaning....
:)
I love you~

xD

2009-11-12T20:38:00.001+08:00

I LOVE YOU!
and the feeling's been going on for soooooo long!

arhh~! I MISS YOU!

ahhh! I'm SICK!
T.T

Slept throughout the day~

miss her more n more n more n more n more~

:( sigh!

SPM is close, I'm Sick, and i dont get to see her till saturday! argh!?!?!?!

.___. brightside would be tat...

i get to sit for my SPM unlike some people who cant even afford to goto school....

my sickness is can be cured in time unlike cancer

and at least i have someone to love n miss :)

yeah.....
but then why dont i feel as happy as i shud be? =\

Humans~ We're Always unsatisfied :x

I love her more than anything~~~
and i really dont wanna lose her.. :(
if tis turns out like my previous almost relationship friendship i'm soo gonna die~
I got hurt soo many times b4 and now i'm scared of it... :|
argh~

what am i to do????

T-T I wonder what she's thinking right now...
or what she's feeling... : |

I dunno how to last 2more days... :(
even then.. what if i dont get any chance to talk with her?!
ahhh! T.T

how come when something good comes it can still turn bad? : |

ahhhhhhh~ I hate being sick!

:(

2009-11-11T22:29:00.003+08:00

i still feel a lil lost~
but through out the day i found sweet solace within the music of Rise Against~
:) great music, great guitar, screamo punk rock, meaningful lyrics...

Dreaming of your voice, rips my heart apart~
I miss u a whole lot... and i cant deal with it~ :(

do you remember the 1st night i told u;
I love you?
and how i regret telling you so early, cos it'd create lotsa mix feelings~
well yeah....
today is one of those days...
I never chose to be emotional~
i just am~
maybe if i'd told u after spm.... i wouldnt feel like this now .___.
lost, lonely, loving and missing u every second of everyday~

I'm glad u're not upset...
thanks for standing by me...
now i really feel like i dont deserve you :X

I miss your smile....

right now... i really feel...

"Although we have no obligation to stay alive, on broken backs we beg for Mercy. We will Survive!
Break Out~ I Wont Be Left Here Behind Closed Doors" - Rise Against

I love you...
that's kinda all i know right now...
and i dunno how i'ma gonna last the month~

the distance we have between us scares me as well...

I'm bound by chains called fear...
fear of lost... fear of hatred... fear of pain...
and i have a collar called jealousy locked on my neck too~
(i love my emotional expressions :D)

ahem~ yeahhhhh...
I'm only human... I wish i could be more~
but well *looks into a mirror*
this is as good as i'm gonna get :x

for the record, I never ask u to help me when i'm emo~
cos seriously u cant.. no one can~
but i do need you to be there when I look for you...
cos tat really helps me alot... more than you know...

I'm.. just sooo.. sorry.. :(

ahhhhhhhh~
Switching to Jrock songs b4 i think of doing something stupid~
:| tat's all for the night....
hehe..... byeeee~

OH! another thing tat totally bugs me is~~
why does everyone else's name appear on your blog...
but ur real msgs for me are never listed...
sometimes i wonder if they're even for me :\

so yeah my fear; +1
fear of being played a fool :|

:S

2009-11-11T20:04:00.003+08:00

Emotional Post....

~I love you~

so.... my day was... boring
she had to go out in the morning~ then it turns out she had to go out till the evening :(~
ermmm hanjing came over to my house during the afternoon~
talked and played games on my ps2
ermmmmmm...
Chatted with erica... which kinda broke my 'happy' mood
I dunno. I'm kinda wondering why is it that everyone has to be so mean just cos i'm in love~

example;
this morning b4 hanjing came~
he was complaining tat he can no longer see the gal he likes~
in additional he was saying how unlike me whom has already found a lover~
happy happy~ blah blah blah~

a few hours afternoon~ erica was like saying stuff like good luck on ur relationship~
and all that but she made it sound sarcastic and we ended up in an argument~

so tell me.... how can I actually be a good enuf person for me :(
I mean all i can give is my Love for her.....
is that even enough :(~

and i know she hates seeing me emotional~
and all tat........... sigh~

I shud stop giving reasons :(~
the only thing i want right now~
Is for her not to be disappointed or angry at me...
cos... no matter how many rounds i go~
she's always been the only person i need in life..
and i love her deeply....~
so... I'm sorry I wasnt feeling well this morning...

and I really really hope u're ok :|
errrmm ermmm....
T.T I wish u were online right now!
The only ounce of happiness i have is when i'm chatting/smsing/talking/seeing her...

she din reply my msgs~
so i'm worried about that......
and i feel really stupid about the way i acted... :|

.................
........
....
I want to change... i wanna be better for her...
but i dunno what i shud become... :|

=d

2009-11-10T23:10:00.003+08:00

this post is going to be slightly more serious;

I love you, this is the truth~
Regardless of anything n everything else around me i love you~
and i'm not afraid to admit it~
You're what i want, and what i desire most right now~
but truth is, among everything we've been through~
all the pain, all the argument, silent treatments~
all seems like nothing compared to the pain of not seeing you now~
i miss you, i really do... and i want to be with you~
I want this relationship to last forever~

You're the one I dream of in the night~
You're the one who fills the emptiness in my heart~
My love for you is like the addiction between vampire and blood~
You're my addiction. The sweetest addiction I've ever had~
& my hopes towards our future are really high :)~
I'll try my best to keep strong our relationship~
I wish i could give you the best of everything...
and i will.. maybe not now but someday~
but for now...
I offer you my Love, in hopes that it is enough~
In faith i trust in God~
because if it's not for Him, we wouldnt have met each other~
or even become such close friends.
even when we dont see each other often~

heh, among everything i've ever felt~
this feeling i have for you is the most pure..
the deepest feeling ever....
I cant describe it... loving you just feels soo right~
& I never want this feeling to stop :)~
so, with faith, hope & love~ in this relationship~
what more is needed?
will you follow me in this relationship lead by God? :)~
cos' only through him will our happiness truly last forever~
even in heaven ;)~
hehe... I love you darling now and always~
Please stay with me, hold on to this relationship with me~
whatever happens, we will get through it~
whatever the future brings, I'll always be beside you~
that's how much I love you~
my love for you as friends b4 was deeper than anything else..
the same, my love for you now is the deepest of all things...
I'd give my life for you in a heartbeat...
I will never hurt you~
and if you hurt me I will always forgive you~
I truly love you~
You're my true love~
and I'm glad I get to be the One for you :)~

o.o

2009-11-10T17:34:00.012+08:00

I woke up this morning and
she msg with me again :D
ahh~! I Love Her More n More Each Day!!!
T.T

ermmm school today was more boring than ever~
cos all we went for was for the SPM Slip
aside from that.. nothing else was happening!
the last day of school and it's soo boring?!?!!

Got Taklimat SPM also...
all i heard was... dont destroy the school's prestige~
blah blah blah~
argh~ damn boring~
made me really tired too!
so came home via feng's car~
ate, sms-ed with her, online awhile, and when to sleep :)~
heh~ I miss her a wholeeee lot now T.T
I wanna....

with you~

hehe~~~
ahhhhhhhh~
I LOVE YOU!
:)~ & SPM is 8days away!
ahhhhh~~~~~~~ I wanna see her badly!!!
really badly!
I miss her sweet beautiful smile~ : (

today

2009-11-09T22:46:00.002+08:00

woke up~
looked at my phone~
saw a message~
it was from her~
:) I was shocked, surprised, happy, excited~ touched too... T.T
she's soo nice n soo sweet :(
ahh i almost cried cos of her sweet-ness~
tat sounds really emotional~ but yeah!

spent the whole morning sms-ing with her~~~
haha lots of teachers din go school also~
those who went didnt teach~
so everyone in teh class was just playing around as always~
tomorrow last day of school~
after tomorrow~ no more school only SPM~
:) ah i cant wait for it to be overrrr~

spent my afternoon playig dota with jing, feng & loon~
jing forced me to make a new garena ID... thus~
the team of -[Raw]~~~
haha....

-[Raw]Cenation & -[Raw]HBK

we owned loon n feng tho.. wakaka~
ermmmm at that time she was sleeping :)~
hehe... I love you~~
Glad she took some rest~ :D~
ermmm~
I miss her really...
but i still gonna focus on my spm~
just for 1 month I have to be more serious about my studies~
so i am~ ignoring the fact that i was gaming tis whole afternoon :X

hehe~ ahh~ i dunno
I'm blurrrr.........
:(
The only thing i'm clear about right now is my love for her~
& my beliefs in God :)~
Everything else dont seem as important anymore~
I'm finally at peace with myself for some reason~
I feel happy... I havent felt this happy in a long time .... :' )
I trust in my lord my provider~
as he will supply me with everything i need~
hehe~
that's why i dont have much worries anymore~
Cos I believe in HIM~
and being soo close with her now makes everything feel much easier...
why was i soo blind before..i wonder..
then again... if i wasnt... we might not be as great together as we can be now~
heh.. I really love her....
Every moment i spent with her, online, offline, thru sms, phonecall, or just a short glance~
feels like a Blessing :)~

so.......

2009-11-08T17:27:00.002+08:00

I may not know what you see in me,
or why you think I'm better than others~
I really am nothing much~
I dont have much either~
But still I love you more than anything~
still sometimes i wonder if thats enough....

I miss you more and more each day~
I long for the day when we can be together~
and loathes at the days when we cant see each other~

Every moment we've spent together means more to me now than ever before~
Every memory of your beauty brings a shock of life into my heart~
Every dreams that I've dreamt of you strengthens my love for you~
Every second I spend writing this now, It cuts me deep as I miss you more now than ever.

I would give anything to see you now~
I love you, truly- madly- deeply- i do~

I'm obsessed with your beauty~
and I'm addicted to your smile~
I cant stop thinking about you~

You Mean Everything To Me

Our Love for one another runs deeper than life itself~
The Root Of This Relationship Is The Strength Of Our Friendship~
And This Feeling That Runs Within In Me Now,
Is Far More Than Anything I've Ever Felt Before...

I Cant Wait To Be With You~
I Love You...
I Adore You...
I Miss You...
I'm LoveSick Over You...

:)

2009-11-07T23:35:00.005+08:00

:) I loved my night

Ignoring the fact tat i was a tad bit jealous :S
ermm, I'm only human :B

anyway~~
during praise and worship~
I was basically asking God to help make me stronger~
and not be soo envious or have soo much fear~
and I heard him...
In a gentle voice in my head :D
so yeah~
hehe
freaky~~~ He said; "By The End Of Today, You'll Be Happy :)"
and i am :)~

I was at peace throughout the service~
learnt the lesson tat the Pst. was preaching :)
and still manage to pass tat thingy to Her ~
although at that time jealousy bit me again.. :(
so i din had the mood to do much~
I wish i could take it all back :S

roar~
that's my regret for today~
maybe if i had more endurance and endured more,
I'd had been able to make not only my night but her night to be superbly memorable...
ahh~
T.T

ahhhh~~
I feel stupid~
But alas, I love her... :)

How much chances do I have left? :S
But still I thank God for the night :)~~~

I love the smiles of random people :D~
and yes i noe tat sounded random~ ROFL

that's pretty much it for my night :S
Going off to chat with her ;)~
hehe, I hope she doesnt think any less of me tho :| ~

ahh I MISS HER!
I called her 5mins ago
:( but the line was unclear......... ah my heart T.T~
and I wont get to see her until next week!
ahhhhhhhh my heart!!! :X
It aches for you! :x
hehe~
I miss you :|

I love the sound of your voice~
I love the beauty of your eyes~
I love the smile on your face~
I love the way you say your bye-s~
and misses all your hi-s~
I love the feeling you make me feel~
more than anything I Love You~
Aishiteru, SarangHey~
all these compares not to the deep feeling i have for you~
Love is an understatement of what I have for you~
Addicted I am to you~
I love everything about you~
I dont know how I'd ever be good enough for you~
But I'll try my best because I LOVE YOU~
I've fallen for You~
I've crushed, crashed & am burning with the desire to see you~
I long for a time where I can just be with you~
I miss you~ I adore you~ I love you~
and I want to be with you~
I love the way you say your hi-s~
and misses all your goodbye-s~
I love the smile on your face~
I love the beauty of your eyes~
I love the sound of your voice~
~:~I Love You~:~

Ah~ My Lame-ness at writing T.T

2009-11-07T00:32:00.003+08:00

She is everything i need, but i never knew i wanted it.
She is everything i want, but i never knew i needed it.

I Love Her More Than Anything Right Now :)~

ermm...
anyway slept my afternoon away
left my com to download
"Torchlight"

Cute game :)~

erm.. ahem~
Another 18+hrs then i'll get to see her :)~
cant wait ;)

ermm.. nothing new really~
oh fell in love with a new singer named;
~Hitomi Takahashi (高橋瞳)~

She Rocks :)

ermmmm,
nothing else happened for today erm yesterday~
anyway~~~
yeah~~ I miss her.... :(

hehe~
So Help Me God (Fireflight)
that's what i feel liek screaming for today :)
cos SPM is getting near and i have full and utter faith that God will supply me with the knowledge i need
alongside helping me with this relationship
and my future finance problem :)~
In God I Trust, And In Him I Lay Down All My Problems :)~
For Today Is Over, I Shall Worry No More.
For It Is Written,

Matthews 6:34
"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."

I Love God, I Love Her, I Love My Life, I Love My Friends N I Love My Dreams :)~

ahh

2009-11-06T10:48:00.004+08:00

I LOVE HER MORE N MORE N MORE!
I DREAMT OF HER LAST NIGHT AND THE NIGHT BEFORE~
I CANT WAIT TO SEE HER AGAIN~ :(

I CANT STOP THINKING ABOUT HER!

I'm Love Sick... :(
I Dont Want This Relationship To End... Ever....
I'm scared that it might.... :(
Cos I Love Her Too Much... :S
N I Dont Know What To Do~

ahhhh!
I LOVE YOU!
More Than Anything~ I Love You!

ermm ermm~ God~
If we're meant to be, then help us now!
:) I need your guidance & protection :X

ahem~~
la la la~
I'm drowning in a sea of love~ :X
and i cant help but wonder how she's feeling :\

Roar~
I miss her soo much...
ahh~ what am i to do? :|

Ahhhh I Love You,
Aishiteru/愛しています,
SarangHey/당신을 사랑합니다,
Ti Amo, 我愛你, Je t'aime~~

:D Let's Make This Last Forever~

I dont know

2009-11-04T22:33:00.002+08:00

I miss someone really badly today~
and i've got good news for her too~
& she doesnt reply my smses~
ah! guess it can wait~

went to school today~
did nothing..
talked with friends about random stuff really.... ermmm...

I'm going to start studying soon too~ yay me~
not going to school tomorrow :) hehe~

ermmm~
loving a random song~
:X u can find the link in my facebook~

Thats all for today~
and for the record; I MISS YOU!!?!?!?!?! T.T

P.S.
hehe got tis cute email, thought i'd share it with y'all ^^:

Household tips

Ants Problem:
Keep the skin of cucumbers near the place or ant hole.

To get pure and clean ice:
Boil water first before freezing.

To make the mirror shine:
Clean with spirit

To remove chewing gum from clothes:
Keep the cloth in the freezer for an hour.

To whiten white clothes
Soak white clothes in hot water with a slice of lemon for 10 minutes 10.

To give a shine to hair:
Add one teaspoon of vinegar to hair, then wash hair.

To get maximum juice out of lemons:
Soak lemons in hot water for one hour, and then juice them.

To avoid smell of cabbage while cooking:
Keep a piece of bread on the cabbage in the vessel while cooking.

To rid the smell of fish from your hands:
Wash your hands with a little apple vinegar.

To avoid tears while cutting onions:
Chew gum.

To boil potatoes quickly:
Skin one potato from one side only before boiling.

To boil eggs quickly:
Add salt to the water and boil.

To check freshness of fish:
Put it in a bowl of cold water. If the fish floats, its fresh.

To check freshness of eggs:
Put the egg in water. If it becomes horizontal, its fresh. If it becomes slanting, its 3-4 days old. If it becomes vertical, its 10 days old. If it floats, its stale.

To remove ink from clothes:
Put toothpaste on the ink spots generously and let it dry completely, then wash.

To skin sweet potatoes quickly:
Soak in cold water immediately after boiling.

To get rid of mice or rats:
Sprinkle black pepper in places where you find mice or rats. They will run away.

To get rid of mosquitoes at night:
Keep leaves of mint near your bed or pillows and in around the room.

Something More, Something New

Messy messy MESSY!

Life's been

war

希望

in words

hmm dead blog

quite long

bye bye bye to me

lately

open minded

know what

:D

:)

Letter

thing is

Honestly

over-reacting

Static Love

Current And Amplitude

2 is better than one

ahh ahh ahhh!! FIRST KISS! :D

For You

怪怪女

NO!

today today today!

gahhh~

days

in spite of

dots

ok

hmm

love~

wtf?!

Yesterday~

short post

the day

Interesting

AHH

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

wishes

rawr

Amumu

Another Day

actually

LOVE!

ermm

My baby

:DD

:)

Happy Birthday Dear

Dear~~~

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥More than anything! ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥Lets do what we can to make tis last forever!

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

XOXO

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

Wronged?

Love

damn

Lovin Christmas

Christmas

ahhh

Expressing

Missing

Forever~

TODAY!

Jay Koopman~ ;D

wish

whee

What's today?

The past days

anniversary

Dear ~

Oh My Friend

Hopeless Romantics

Storytime~

Roar

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

Lets do what we can to make tis last forever!